.::To The Future We Will Go::.

desperate? really?

2006-07-15T14:19:00.000+08:00

CH:" cause trial coming d so i wan study study study "
me:" same lol~ i also wanna study for my trial "
CH:" after i date u i only can concerntrate study lo "
me:" wa~ like that also can meh~"
CH:" if not i keep thinking of u when study"
me:" we not together also~ u don need to date me so fast also nevermind~ after SPM also can"
CH:" so u still wan this date or not?"
me:" i donno"
CH:" then suan ba~from now on i think 1 week i will on9 1 or 2 time only"
me:" ok, same to me~so means then u seldom on9 i also seldom on9"
CH:" mayb later i wont on9 at all"
me:" i can't stop u anyways~ if this is ur choice~ then ok ^^"
CH:" i hope i wont on9 untill SPM lol"
me:" ya, i think better after SPM only on9"
CH:" really tak sampai hati"
me:" don't make me sob le la..."
CH:" concerntrate on ur study lo"
me:" "yue ding" after SPM only meet"
CH:" i will hear this song all the time"
me:" ok.........yue ding.........sob"
CH:" dun sad lah make me sad also...really tak sampai hati.................."
me:" i also tak sampai hati lo!"
CH:" in my heart will still miss u, but i will try my best to not miss u again"
me:" don't chat liao~ the more we chat the more that i tak sampai hati"
CH:" u just have little faith"
me:" u was born to be loved"
CH:" i wish that this day wont come"
me:" .........."
CH:" take care"
me:" u too~ remember our (yue ding)"
CH:" bye"
me:" tata"

-offline-

next day...
CH:" u free this sunday?"
me:" no chatting or dating untill SPM ends~"
CH:" i really wanna to meet u"
me:" pls...do u still remember that u told me that u'll really desperate on study?"
CH:" i really really wan to meet u... plssss"
me:" forget about me"
CH:" but i really wan to meet u"
me:" u give me 5 reasons why should i meet u, then i will consider about it"
CH:" ...."
me:" that day u already decided to stop thniking of me, on9, and more...so...."
CH:" im the 1 who make this stupid decision u know"
me:" erm........."
CH:" i damn sad after that"
me:" don't said like that....this is for our own good~ i understand and i accpet ur decision~"
CH:" T.T"
me:" long u r happy, and hav a good time for study without wasting time on9~ it's ok for me"
CH:" u think i happy?"
me:" since u already decided, i'll respect it"
CH:" can u juz meet me once?"
me:" don make me "xin ruan" le...i afraid i can't tahan already...."
CH:" ok if u say like that"
me:" sorry..."
CH:" ok, i go now...this is really our last conversation"
me:" sorry.....really really sorry"
CH:" last thing i wan to tell u. remember to eat in time cause i cant remind u all the time liao"
me:" ya, will remember"
CH:" sob"
me:" ...bye..."

-offline-

dear my computer~ am i bad? evil? why i can't get away from these thing and life happily?
neh~ however, i won't care too much about this~ as i said, i will study hard~ so i do it and prove it! ok la, stop here~ i'm tired liao~ tata my dear computer ^^

latest version

2006-07-14T19:13:00.000+08:00

latest version of me, myself and I ^^

i learned

2006-07-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

found myself & run away, but something pulled me back
thought can handle this, but i can't...

realised that i have changed a lot..
my personality changed..
learned things through relationship..
it's the most complicated thing in the world.
From there, i got hurt a lot of time...
after all that i had gone through, i understand being hurt isn't the worst thing in the world...
but instead it is a great teacher; it softened and strengthend our heart!
And do u know what's the worst thing on earth?
it's to shut yourself down from love...

haha, actually don't really think that i'm a person who need love sooooo much lol~
sure i can still "hidup" in this world even there's no love with me...
even now i don't hav love from someone "special",
but at least i hav love from my family and frens ^^
for me, these "love" are enough for the rest of my life!

ya, i know i had been hurt by someone who i trusted so much,
but seems it's passed, so forget it lol~
maybe u'll will think that i'm just "an wei" myself,
erm...maybe yes la......but this is the best way for me to forget everything...
i can't do anything else, so i just enjoy my life~!
ppl always get shocked when i cried without reason,
but for me, it was cool! yeah! tention all gone! haha...

from "last" time i been hurt around April/May,
i promise myself do not think about "relationship" thingy anymore~
i should focus on my studies anyways~
time runing fast~ it almost SPM trial exam jor...soon real SPM!
wow, i can't waste my time on these useless "story"
i should step forward ^^
maybe after SPM i'll found something that i waited lol ^^

now, my mind only full with books~
even i'm not really good student,
but i'll try my best to be the best lol ^^
so i wish all of u'll support me~

erm... feel sleepy liao....
i think i should off9 and go take a rest~
so, bye!

-lame blog end-

我们是朋友吗？

2006-07-08T19:27:00.000+08:00

最近在学校非常繁忙～好多事必须办…
累得喘不过去了 >.<
但这些日子我也惯了，忙对我来说是一种习惯。
若有一天我不忙的话，我想我会sien死哦！哈哈！

其实这一切并不是让我最烦的事，真正让我喘不过去的是…友谊
我也不知道要怎么开始好，总而言之就是那么复杂就对了～
我，B.X, S.T, H.D和Z.L五个人一直以来就是好姐妹
虽然有时我们会闹，但最后还是ok回啊。但，
为什么自从K.L参入我们的“家庭”，各各都变了？
让我感觉你们蛮得情绪化多了…我好不惯现在的你们…

我并不是说我是完全对，但至少我清楚，了解，珍惜我们的友谊～
我真的不希望因为小件事让我们分隔哦…
haiz...心很乱…不知怎么接下去了～
... ...灰... ...

桃花六月份

2006-07-04T16:09:00.000+08:00

10.06.2006
进辉约我去TS～当然不只我和他，还有思明哦！
时间过得真快，我与进辉都有一年没见面了～
自从我们分手后，再也没见面了。
头头我还以为这次的约会也许会有点paiseh...
但还好一切都很自然^^ 说真的，他是我第一个ex分手后还可以做朋友的对象。
我其它ex都没像他～感觉不错^^
在此我愿他可以找到真心爱他的人，幸福快乐！

14.06.2006
今天我与Mr.J sms'ing~哈哈，我猜测的一样，他真的是喜欢我～
我没给任何回应他，因为…我也不懂要如何…

17.06.2006
今天去安邦男中的联欢会...
这让我非常怀念在安邦的生活～haiz...
同时我见到很多老朋友！很开心！
也看见很多小学朋友～嘻嘻，大家都长大了哦！
C.H也在～paiseh…嘻嘻…
大家都说我变了～有些说我变美，有些说我变帅。
一切不重要，最重要还是自己对自己的看法^^

18.06.2006
C.H他突然变了～他突然开始与我chat，问很多关于我的事
甚至他读完所有我的blogs！从2005年到现在～真不可思议！
奇怪哦… (还好他不知道我有这个blog >.<) 19.06.2006
我相信今天是我一生中做最大的错！！！
我傻了～跟本不清楚在做什么，就此犯大错
有谁能了解我现在的心情？haiz...
unmeaningful part, so i skip ^^

22.06.2006
最近上网都一直和C.H chat得很多～
他好像变了一点，不像以前不敢和别人chat的C.H了。
好笑的是，每次下网之前都会说：“miss u"哦！
以前他都不会这样咧…看来他的确有问题…

24.06.2006
今天Sri Muda学校联欢会～哇，看见好多熟人哦！嘻嘻…
C.H也在！ *paiseh* 哈哈^^
其实今天我会来到这儿都是因为他哦…
当我一知道他来这儿，我和学校学妹临时改计划哦！
所谓的付出嘛～联欢会解散后，
我学校和安邦男中学校的华文学会一起去吃午餐。
我看梦都梦不到既然在这情况下可以“顺便"跟C.H吃午餐咧～嘻嘻…
回到家虽然累了，当我却还上网。跟随直觉吧！
啊，C.H也上线哦！他既然告诉我很多东西
相信别人都不知道的事吧～^^

25.06.2006
我在发梦吗？！C.H今天怎么大胆了？！
我真的很开心C.H既然会说这“一切"话～
one bad news and one good news ^^
我永远不会忘记他这一番话，真的！
secret :"ni deng yi yuan dou wo spm wan kao zhi shen"

01.07.2006
我终于在VI出现啦！C.H，开心吗？嘻嘻…
但，快乐时光过得真快，一杀那，Y.M就在我眼前…
我心突然很痛…很伤…真的不知道该怎么做～
渐渐的，眼泪一滴一滴湿满tisu...原来我才发觉我好想他！
当不住眼泪…眼泪慢慢淹满心情。
从开心的心情很快就转为悲伤～天啊，为什么这样整我呢？！
很苦很苦，我才站得起来。但才见他一眼，我已经沉入海底…游不上来了…
haiz...我好笨哦！我不应该再想他了～
Y.M是我“过去”，所以我跟本不该再想他了！
亚萱！！！醒吧！！！
虽然这一切听起来是骗自己的话，但也许是好的开始^^
转身，看见C.H那天真的脸，好可爱哦！哈哈…
我不必伤心了，现在我该往前走呀～！
加油哦，亚萱^^

04.07.2006
也许我与Mr.J之间有些事必须说清楚，但现在不是时候。
也许我与C.H这complicated的事必须解决，但现在也是不是时候。
我不知道这样做是对还是错，但这就是唯一我可以做的事～

Mr.J , i'm sorry!是我对不起你…
C.H，i'm waiting ^^ 我会等你实现你的诺言…

其实还有很多要写，只是懒惰而已～
多多原谅 >.<

朋友

2006-06-09T14:48:00.000+08:00

星座排行榜－最近感情出擊 -- 第一名雙魚座：
浪漫放第一，只要氣氛感覺對了，雙魚座這個調情高手保證是衝衝衝。
因此最近愛情運勢高居不下的星座，雙魚座自然榜上有名。
尤其是本月份前兩週，雙魚座特別想讓生活來點不一樣，你除了會給對方出其不意的邀約，
還會因現場氣氛超讚，讓你倆加速墜入情網的進度，這種情形當然是讓感情出擊必勝。
不過奉勸雙魚座，情不自禁時絕對要冷靜以待，不要將喜歡或感激誤以為是真愛，事後才又懊悔這段戀情喔！

说得准！等，我看该写下英文好一点吧！嘻嘻…
yup, correct! sound so true~ these weeks i've been arounding by guys/boys... good news? or bad news? haha, i'm not sure for it ^^ i met alot new frens recently special guys/boys~

actually, i donno what happen to me...suddenly met alot guys/boys~ and some of them make me having feeling toward them~ i donno whether is true feeling or only normal feeling, but they gave me special feeling anyways~ make my life happier! ^^

list it out? haha, i think better no~ but these something i would like to "shout out" at my blog~
special to Mr.J...

Mr. J~
i'm gald to met u~ even i just met u once but donno why u also had gav me a "special" feeling~
i know u r younger than me... and i know u just met ur "lov" for 4 days ago~( since i met u) but there's something i really really wanted to tell u..
that is "if i got a chance to meet u ealier, i will more happier."
i know, from the moment u asked me about my "lifestyle",
i felt that u might having the same feeling just like me? why i know?
erm...because i'm older than u and i hav more esperience than u? haha, joking ^^
i really do happy having such a sweet conversation with u~
long time i didn't feel like this actually... most important, u r younger than me~
as u know, any boys are younger than me,
i won't care about them or having any feeling toward them~
just treat them as lil brother~ but u different...haha...funny right?

ok, i think thats all i wanna "shout out"~ now i'm done~ so back to my topic...^^
aiyo, donno what else i should write...mind in blank and blur too >.<
i met alot guys/boys...kinda happy meeting new frens but not ready if wanna build up a relationship~ cause i think i'm still tired... i prefer study now (even i'm not good in study)
however, let time prove it ^^

holidays^^2

2006-06-08T14:10:00.000+08:00

06.06.2006
晚上，haur来找我～终于见到了他口中的“尤一”和“林三”…
我今天在紫君家过夜，虽然她是我邻居，
但我还是比较喜欢自己家的床～哈哈！

07.06.2006
今天xing li会来找紫君～因为紫君病了…
看见他们puppy loving，感觉我好像老了～嘻嘻…
虽然如此，我先去了阿姨家才与他们会合（阿姨刚出院）
三点多才见到他们～xing li也带了一位朋友，
名叫Justin～他人真可爱，健谈！像我一样～
我与他很多话题谈，谈得很开心…
晚了，住巴生的他们必须回家了～看来他们都很不舍得…
其实我也是哦！
secret: "gan hao you ye ta dui wo shi qi" >.<
夜了，guard打来，原来haur又来了～
难道他车油是free的？呵呵…
谈了一会儿，各自回各自家了～

08.06.2006
非常累，所以很迟才起床…
不久之后，739send了一个website's add～
打开来看，是他写关于我！恨！
讨厌的是写我的名字啊！全世界都知道啦！
算了，事情一定要解决它…现在希望他明白…

holidays^^

2006-06-06T18:06:00.000+08:00

这假期真忙～蛮累的哦…还没假期前，我希望快点假期，让我有时间休息。
但却想不到既然还是一样的忙…haiz... 我也疯了，单单一个星期的假期就已用的超过RM350＋＋
天啊，我希望快点上课！！！上课会更省哦…

27&28.05.2006(假期活动开始）
饥饿30来临哦！见到很多很多老朋友～
真的好想念他们 >.< 见到他们真让我疯狂起来了，哈哈！

29.05.2006
今天原本我应该去上课（extra课〕但，
因为太累了，所以没去～haiz...
哦，是的～今天健滢和健敏会来我家住。
晚上，他们到了～哈哈，也说笑很多～^^
我们很迟才入睡，也许太多话要说但却说不完吧！

30.05.2006
一大早，这两姐妹说要去KL玩一整天automatically也拉我了～
我们先去金河，之后TimeSquare最后到Summit…
我也不知道为何要去Summit，也许是因为要看害健敏被骗了一整天的"魔术师"吧…
真的很累！尤其是在等haur到Summit附近去接我们的时候，
我真的差点睡着了～ >.< 吃玩完后，haur送我们会（夜了…没交通…唯一就是他的车）
11pm 当时也约了家耀出来送我会去哦…哈哈，有他在气氛真的好很多～^^
secret: "de gan hao you ta dui man shi qi wo " >.<

31.05.2006
因为昨天完得太累，所以今天没出们，只好呆在家睡觉。嘻嘻…
但，健滢下芙蓉去meet她老友，而健敏和我在家ZzZzZz...呵呵…
他们两人原本打算今天回家的，但因为太累所以延迟到明天了～

01.06.2006
今天是学记投选活动～haiz...又要忙了…
健滢和健敏今早跟我出门时，同时也回家了～
还有，今天8666的女生将会"出马"，希望顺利过关哦！

02.06.2006
今天我，伟伦，国荣，伟杰（伟伦的弟弟)及学弟去world vision的office
又一次我去当志工哦！蛮开心哦！
天啊，可爱又帅的William(饥饿30的司仪）也在场！
嘿，还好我没失礼～控制得好，没发狂…哈哈^^

03.06.2006
今天我很累，只好呆在家为明天的BBQ做好准备吧～
忙了一整天，早睡也好哦…

04.06.2006
BBQ啦！哇！天啊！全场的人疯了起来哦！哈哈^^
啊哟，在场的人没相机所以不好意思不能与你们分享～
最疯的是荣耀，超疯！当然少不了他的patner国荣…嘻嘻…
在最后一分钟，荣耀打算约haur～我无话可说…懒惰去理…
当时紫君也参与我们这一班老人家（紫君才14岁而已噢）

05.06.2006
一整天没睡好的我，一大早就起床了…
哦，差点忘了紫君有约我去巴生！！！
很快得我吃早餐也很快得去冲凉～之后加速去找她
哈哈，其实紫君是我邻居啦，就这样我速度减少许多～呵呵…
第一次去巴生，感觉不错…
我也剪了头发，是紫君这小妹要求下才剪的～RM25…蛮贵…
同时，也拉了紫君与xing li的红线！感觉超爽！哇哈哈！
也认识了新朋友哦…有wen wei, zhong sheng and wei chang ^^
secret: "gan hao you wei wen dui ye wo" >.<"
7pm就回家了～原本要去pasar malam但之后发现老妈已买了很多东西就没去了…

06.06.2006
超不舒服！！！应该是因为昨天吃的食物吧～
昨天吃太多炸，所以现在喉咙痛了！
haur他也疯了～少读他的blog吧，因为多数都是废话…

back?!

2006-06-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

eto...seems like long time didn't update my blog...
now...i'm back~ donno whether this is good news or bad news...
no matter how, i'll still happy as usual~ (shit, what i'm crapping about?!)

at 1st, i was thinking wanna change my blogskin,
but after 2 hours searching...still can't find skin that i like~
so...didn't change~ still using the old skin just that i change my banner and update my tagboard to a new version~ ^^

anyways, nothing else to say~
that's all for today! bye!

长痛不如短痛

2006-04-24T06:40:00.000+08:00

我曾问过老天爷
如果他不再出现，我的世界还有什么可贵？

我又再问老天爷
如果他从没出现，我会不会觉得快乐一些？

老天爷告诉我说
在进一步交往之前，心先问自己…
1）喜欢这个人是否附带条件？
2）是否在逃避什么？
3）是否企图改变这个人？

老天也又说
如果你对其中任何一个答案是【对】
那么你还是离开这个人，他没有你也许会过得更快乐。

听了之后，感觉我犯错太多
对任何人都不公平…原来真的是我错了～

我还记得2月26日那天
他曾对我说过的一切，也是我们的第一步

在3月11日是让我难忘的一天
因为这一天让我对他更有信心，懂了他的好

但在3月18日他对说了让我流泪的话
我却没当一件事，因为他确实没亲自告诉我

苦苦等待他，4月22日终与事情解决了～
从他口中说出来的话，让我呆了一整个晚上

也许他说的对，我与他时间的错误
erm...不够时间，让我们试验什么叫永远…
我们之前的感觉也渐渐淡了，时间总要把诺言一点点摧毁…

我想也许也是我的错
我知道我太迟懂得他的好，也迟珍惜他在我身边
现在说都没用了，一切都过去了～
我他都选择了“长痛不如短痛”…应该是最佳的办法吧

我想还是专心在学业上吧！再加上快要考试了～
对，简单来说我以学业来治疗我的伤口…
erm...同时我暂时会停止写blog，暂时没那颗心要写哦…
haiz...顺其自然吧！

p/s: si ba gong, do u still remembered that u hutang me alot of date? if i said i wanna chang one of the date to i need ur shoulder, would u lent to me? no matter u wanna scold me or wateva, i don't care...just hope that u can lent me ur shoulder~ i donno who else i can talk to, if u really r good ppl and a loyalty fren, hope u lent ur ears to me too...>.<

哈哈，无聊～

2006-04-18T18:57:00.000+08:00

猫追老鼠

competition+ a month already...

2006-04-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

today went for forum competition
all going well and fine~
and i met alot frens from others school
kinda happy ^^ (frens that i knew from other kinds of competition)

yup, like i said yesterday all came true!
hidayah really get embrassed! wakaka!
am i bad? actually not that i really wanna said something bad about her
just that this might a good thing too...
let her learn the moral value lol >.<

erm...
its been a month already since Y.M leave...
donno how is him now...
haiz...i still remembered the day he leave me
sound like just happened yesterday
fresh memory in my mind...
however, no matter what happen just hope that he is fine
that's all ^^

nothing much to say...
now waiting for the results...
they said will fax to school wor~ haiz...

死家伙！

2006-04-18T18:50:00.000+08:00

我要告诉全世界我弟弟是一个没良心的男孩！
生与死的事，他却当没一件事一样！顶他！

前几天，我告诉了他FH不舒服…
需要他暂时替我照顾FH…但，他却没做到～
超讨厌我弟弟这态度，不负责任 >.<

今天早上，5点钟我已起床准备将要比赛的东西
当我望去FH的方向时，
发觉有点不对劲，便跑去看看…
天啊！！！FH病的超超严重噢～
我突然发呆，看着FH…不知该怎么做好…
那一刻，我好想哭…真想要哭…
但，我告诉过我自己要坚强,不能虽随意流泪～
最后虽然表面上我并没流泪，但我心里已是淹水了…
看着FH严重咳，好心痛哦！
FH曾也病得严重，但很快就好了～因为有我看FH嘛～
现在不同…死家伙弟弟既然不里！！！

不久，妈妈也起床(准备工作的东西)
当她看着我静静发呆…她已懂有事发生
我诉苦…一直shoot弟弟～！
妈妈火大了～（其实妈妈也懂弟弟没尽责任）
立刻去拿药水，但却没用了…
我心告诉我说：“没得救了”…我骗自己说FH一定没事
但，FH真的“走了”……………
我躲去房里，又开始“自言自语”…

妈妈很生气的叫醒弟弟，也骂了他。
那死家伙，都已6：50am却还不起床，真气死人啦！
我在房里时，听见可厅传来的声音
感觉妈妈对这件事真的很生气哦～
弟弟既然无所事那幅脸，又被妈妈多骂一次～活该！

时间也不多，我要去学校了
我临走之前，妈妈劝我别多想～专注在今天的比赛

haiz...FH走了～再也没FH在身边
FH在我身边5年了～就这样留下我一个人寂寞…
FH是国伟给我的礼物…所谓的“定情礼物”
虽然当初我拒觉了国伟，
但他给我的这FH一直陪伴着我…

erm...FH虽然只是一条flower horn鱼，
但确实一条生命！珍贵哦！

从今天起，我在也不养鱼了～由其是flower horn鱼
一切都怪我弟弟！死家伙！没良心！

lame blog again >.<

2006-04-17T18:48:00.000+08:00

16/4/2006
yesterday i went to MV with Edward
but this time he bring along his fren
1st i feel kinda paiseh,
but last i found that his fren are funny as well lol
his chinese name hard to memorize,
so normally ppl called him as "busycat"
but i dislike that name, so i asked for his chinese name
called...erm...forgotten lol >.<
but however, i just call him A-Wei~ easier!

haha! even enjoyed my day...
but donno why my mind keep thinking about Y.M
specially when i was at K.L Sentral station long time didn't contact Y.M...
haiz... maybe also because i dreamt about Y.M
when i was woke up, felt wanna continue sleep
cause i don wanna stop my dream >.<>

after reached home, i didn't take dinner directly went sleep...*ZzZzZz*
(now already 17/4/2006 ^^) around 12:30a.m.
Haur sms'ed me and called me
wow, seems like untill now i haven sleep well lol
cause we talked on phone from 12:30am untill 4:46am lol,
thats mean i don need to sleep liao just get ready for school cause it's already my school time

haha, again today i late for school
no mater how early i wake up or get ready stll late for school lol >.<
funny! even discipline teacher start complaining about me liao
actually, i'm not really late anyways
just that my school start earlier than other schools
my school start 7:20am while other schools start on 7:30am i guess~
today i'm not in class for whole day~
cause i was preparing for tomorrow competition
kinda tired and fed up! now i starting dislike hidayah "work" style
she keep counting on other ppl
when asked her to write longer for her skrip she just "anggap angin masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri"
when we all focus'ing on what we discussing
she keep chaging the topic, not pay attention at all no matter how,
one thing that i'm sure is if she still didn't change,
sure tomorrow she will embrased...
that time nobody else can help her lol neh,
she ingore what i had said, so i also ingore she,
just continue on my work lol haiz...

nothing else to say liao~
wanna continue hafal my skrip for tomorrow competition wish me luck lol ^^

can u brighten my darkest night?

2006-04-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

彼此的我们拥有自己生活
曾经走的路就像一般的路
没什么独特但是却又深刻

我不懂怎样向前走了
只能说……

我送你一条纸船
希望它可以带你游到适合的港口
但…那个港口不会是我…

你不是属于我的我也不是属于你
虽然你曾说过会加倍努力
但可怕是我是我出现问题
我非常珍惜你做过的一切

默默等待
静等奇迹
博取她笑
只因为爱

但
我没那肯定的心去相信你，甚至我自己
对不起…

我也相信从现在起，除了家人之外
再也人敢爱我
虽然次次都失败，但我真的无能为力了～
就是因为我不敢去爱…也怕再次受伤… >.<

so touched...

2006-04-15T18:49:00.000+08:00

today finally i hav a good break time!
i when to Bukit Tinggi at PAHANG
and guess what? so nice!!! sweet view lol!

1st, i thought Bukit Tinggi might will be same like others bukit >.<
but this is different, it's wonderful ^^
hav alot of fun with my frens~ there's 10 of us...

wow, even we all feel tired,
but we all more tired with laughing...nonstop =.=
they shouted at me to stop with "cold jokes" or "stupid jokes"
but donno why, i just like to carry on with it lol!
am i siao/crazy?!

what a good one day trip...
i really enjoyed...
on the way home, they all still alive
i mean they still keep crapping, but...
i was sleeping *ZzZzZz*
haha, maybe i'm too tired recently~
so after hav a good relaxing day,
easy for me to hav such a good nap lol ^^

just reached home~
abit tired but happy too!
cause i just found out that there's alot teachers so so sayang me!
wahaha! touched...

now i only realised they they keep talk about me at teacher's office
wa, some of them puji me too ^^
i donno what should i say more about them (teachers)
just that i starting love them deeper!
wahahaha...fellow frens, don't get jealous lol
next time if teachers give me something nice,
sure i will share with u gusy too ^^ haha!

i'm hiding...

2006-04-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

haur recently seldom call me liao
maybe he is busy gua...
he came back from genting trip few days ago
saw his blog wrote about the trip
seems like he and his frens enjoyed their time
and hav alot of fun lol ^^

erm...si ba gong moved to cheras liao
so sad...i missed si ba gong very very much!
last few days si ba gong sms'ed me
i didn't reply because...schooling time >.<
later when i sms, no reply lol...haiz...
donno how is si ba gong now...sob...

8/4 saturday, early in the morning
Xue Lin xuemei called me and keep ask me out
finally, i went to her school (sri petaling area)
when i was in the lrt, there's alot of memories viewed...
suddenly missed the time when i was at ampang lrt
i mean during the time together hang out with Y.M at ampang
haiz...

9/4 sunday, is C1's meeting
actually i'm abit late there
but can't believe that meeting still haven starts yet
haiz...there's still 20th xueji is not there yet lol >.<
at last, they chose 3 activities lol
not bad anyways~ hope they can handle it ^^

these day, i'm still busy with alot of stuff
and every night be4 i went to bed
my "weapon" still "alive"...
i mean still the same that i still "zi yan zi yu" lor...
donno how long i will keep in this kind of situation
haiz...suan lar~
maybe it might be same like last year...
that's i used 8 months to forget my past...
haiz...

sorry lar, donno what to write liao~
bye...

爱错(part 2)

2006-04-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

哇～我终于搬家了，转校了。
但，我怕怕哦…感觉陌生…
搬到来时，非常念旧家，旧校～
当我在整理房间时，
发现有一袋beg，我便打开它～
哦，原来是这一两年来我所收到的情信…
不知不觉都已上百封了～
真很难以相信…>.<

我form3了，不再是form1 或 form2～
也认识了很多新朋友，好开心！
虽然有时候很想念以前的生活,
但人总是要向前走嘛～嘻嘻！

Erm…我对“情”这一个字的定义也换了！
哈哈，我也大胆开始跨出第一步了～
以前，我一直都很怕“爱情”这件事…
不敢做，不敢爱，什么都不敢。
最后，我终于醒了！有时候，来了也很难挡～
所以我在form3 年尾开始“第一次”～
但，撑不久…>.<
当时，我真的不知道是哪里出错…最后，我明白了^^
原来问题就在我身上，因为我还带着花心的心态。
我反醒了…若我再这样下去，受苦也是我。
Form4,当我的“第二次”，我再也不花心，反而我满足！
对我而言，一对情侣能在一起一段时间已算是不得了～
由其是在现在的时代～我这次能维持半年算好了！^^
但，记住！其实莫一段感情是不能以时间来表示一段感情的好与坏…
一切是靠两方相处方式～

Erm…说到我的“第三次”…haiz…
故事好长,长到难以说完…
因为这段感情…让我苦了半年时间才放得下哦～
算了，苦事不多说吧！嘻嘻！^^
朋友也说我“亚萱以前很绝的，但现在变了”
对！以前，我在一年里拒绝15个人以上
但，或许曾经渡过难关，所一现在更懂事
做人就是别那么自私哦！
我其实应该多多感谢曾经爱过我的人
因为有你们，让我了解“世上有情人”的故事
现在若有人向我表白，我会很高兴！
高兴不是因为有人向我表白
而是高兴因为能添加我对“爱”的信心哦～

虽然到现在我对“爱”这件事还很blur
简单来说还是没信心，没勇气…
无论如何，慢慢来吧！
有“心”者，会得“报”哦！哈哈！
(是否夸张了？！) >.<
甚至，我现在都搞不懂我喜欢的对象～
我对人人都有好感,但…
若说到超越友情，却还没到爱情的地步
的确没有～erm…也许有，只是我许要时间吧！^^

现在疑问是，我喜欢谁？
谁喜欢我？谁还在等着我？谁能告诉我呢？
Haiz…

爱错(part 1)

2006-04-10T18:48:00.000+08:00

情？什么是情？
Haiz…就是因为一个简单“情”让世人添加不同的“滋味”…
说起感情的事，其实是我最讨厌的话题了～

我还记得，在我读 form1 – form2 那年，
面对这些事实在太多了～还让我失去很多朋友…
不是我的感情世界，而是我身边朋友的感情问题…
我真的不了解，为何当时我朋友那么看重感情～
而我…根本与我无关既然被他们以“怪怪”的眼神看待！真讨厌！

当时的我真的很讨厌“情”，非常讨厌那种～
为什么那么讨厌？就是经历过难又苦的生活…
Haiz…
若是你被身边的朋友叫：“狐狸精、勾引别人的男朋友、小女人”等等
你们感觉如何？你身边朋友既然这样叫你，
你会好过吗？甚至form3 – form 5的seniors都这样看待，
你会好过吗？不认识你的人，不了解你的人，
这样对待你是无所谓，但现在是你的朋友哦！！！

我记得他们既然为喜欢的人，暗恋的人，重色轻友哦！
还因为我常与他们喜欢的对象聊天，微笑等等。
就讨厌我！这样说我哦…我很难过…

但无论如何，这不重要～
最重要是我这样看我自己，
我人缘好，朋友多，异性朋友也多…
这都不能怪我～谁叫我那么的健谈嘛～嘻嘻^^

但对于我身边朋友的暗恋对象，喜欢对象甚至他们的男朋友
我知道有一部分真的喜欢上我，但我已经尽量保持距离了～
免得更多事发生嘛～
我很想大声喊说:“谁谁喜欢我的人，眼睛都出现问题！去看医生吧！”
Erm…也许我对自己没什么信心，认为喜欢我的人都有问题～
我这种人既然还有人喜欢，真奇怪！
Haiz…就是因为这些喜欢我的人，让我变得花心～
但！我绝对没玩他们的感情！我才没那么浅！
我拒绝他们，都是因为不想伤害任何人，
但，我现在不会随便拒绝了，我先会给时间大家
之后才慢慢decide是否适合在一起～

面对各种各样的问题的当时，我真的很想离开这世界，
希望可以远离它～最后，我真的走了～
呸！不是真的走，而是转校，搬家啦！哈哈！

eto...blur

2006-04-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

我相信很多学记都写了关于41联谊会的活动…
erm...我看不要写吧～因为不“特别”了～嘻嘻！

这整个星期我去学校都没上到课
为什么？haiz...都是因为学校办得minggu bahasa+minggu anti dadah
我根本没踏入课室
我就像马一样，到处奔跑…
haiz...

这星期发生的事也多，多到我不知怎么开始说…
总而言之，添加麻烦就对了！
erm...我记得有一天，当我missed call Y.M时，
他电话既然打通！哇塞！难得哦～
我心跳加数…非常怕…
当我第二次call时，还是一样打通…
但很快我就盖电话了，因为我很怕…
不知接了电话要说写什么好…
最后，我终于提起勇气来，打第三次电话给他…
可惜，这时候电话已关机了～haiz...
好矛盾！觉得自己很笨～难道这是所谓的“天意”吗？
(我相信没人明白我在说着什么，对吗？)

还有一次，haur send了一封sms给我…
很奇怪，不知道干吗send我这样的sms
当时也很夜了…也许他发梦，所以send错sms给我吧！
嘻嘻！^^

而小永，他更怪！我根本不知他在玩什么游戏～
天啊，感觉我快疯了！
算了，再说下去我会更疯～！

kesimpulannya,这星期过得很烦又累～
我越来越跟不上这世界的节奏…
haiz...

sweet dream ^^

2006-04-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

天啊！！！
不知道为何最近我发的梦都如此得甜！
好开心哦～虽然只是梦，但我已经心满意足了…

梦中有我和Y.M…
我好喜欢这场梦！太甜了！
让我不想起床哦…嘻嘻…
虽然我与Y.M分隔很远，
但我还是一样3他…希望他快点回来～
可惜到现在还是没有他的消息…haiz...

还有另一个梦也让我感到非常难忘
那就是我与kai.h的梦！
我好难相信我既然会梦见k.h
之从我和k.h发生了一些误会后，
我们都很少说话～学校见面也只是打个招呼就算了～
现在既然我可以梦见k.h！高兴！
这场梦真的真的让我安心很多…

其实还有很多美梦，
但我影像深刻只有这两个～
说真的，我不介意再梦回Y.M or k.h...
因为他们是我好朋友，梦境见也是好事！
哈哈！

what i'm doing?

2006-03-29T19:00:00.000+08:00

yeah, i think this time i gonna write my blog in english~
even i know my english were poor, but at least i'll try to brush up >.<

this week i'm having my 1st semesta examination~
guess what? i can't pay full attention for it!
i keep thinking about others things~ haiz...
omg, just donno what gonna happen to me soon...
specially now! time running fast and is getting close to SPM...

however, today was the last day and i'm happy!
even today the hardest papers i had sat (sejarah/p.seni/p.perakaunan/P.M@P.I)
but i'm happy cause finally exam is over,
so i can hav lovely sleep time again! ^^ yeah!

oh ya, DJ and EY finally together liao~
haha, sound weird but it's sweet anwyays...
hope that they can stay long! don't break so fast lol
erm...last week i've been busy with my "creation" stuff
i really wish i can do the best for it! now still working on it anyways~
i already planned...
the 1st thing i will do after i finish my "creation" is i wanna give the 1st one to Y.M
why? because he is my best fren, so i should keep one for him even he's not in KL now...>.<

omg, i just knew that Su Yin already went to Japan!
already been a week and i just knew it yesterday!
she went there for school exchange student for one year...
so long man! one year! i gonna miss she badly lor...

last friday, teacher had told me that there's gonna hav a debats competition again...
actually not only debats, also general knowlegde quiz and etc...etc...
like usual, i been "throw" into those activities >.<
and my Forum competition also coming very soon!
i ahven prepare anything yet! omg! die die die man!

neh~ tired and fed up now...
donno what to write liao~
update it next time lol...
tata! >.<

写给他的信…

2006-03-29T18:59:00.000+08:00

Y.M,

嗨，好久没联络了～最近好吗？希望一切都顺利哦！^^
你在那儿好玩吗？会辛苦吗？记得别累坏自己…好好照顾自己吧！
嗯，不知不觉已经一个月又3三天了～你记得当初我们是怎样认识，怎样走过来吗？
现在好怀念那些日子…也很3你哦…

其实我也不知道要写什么了…
我很希望很快点可以见到你，因为我有好多话要告诉你。
我根本没办法联络你…根本再也听不到你的消息了～
sms但你却关机，写信又不知道要寄去哪里…

三四个月没有你，真的有点闷。
虽然身边朋友多，但可以代替你的位子却还没出现…
看来我又必须等咯～ >.<

haiz...不说了～再说的话让我更3你而已…
在此，我祝远方的你身体健康，笑口常开，事顺顺利利！
保重！take good care of urself! ^^

萱

我想拥有什么？信心吗？还是耐心？

2006-03-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

23/3/2006
今天去学校时，感觉超累！
也许是因为凌晨时在玩车，玩到过时了吧～

最近越来越多学校的老师更加认识我了。
不知道这是一件好事还是坏事哦…
哈哈，又有几位老师的毛病又来了！
总是很喜欢作弄我，跟我开玩笑等～
但到最后，我还是胜哦！嘻嘻…^^

最近功课很多，做到我快疯了～
Haiz…其实应该说我懒惰吧…>.<
算了～

回到家，还是继续做功课。
这次真的！我终于睡着了～
太累嘛～没办法～别赖我～
一起身，我又赶功课。
其实我不只赶着功课，而且还要赶kokurikulum的东西哦!
天啊！忙啊！疯啦！>.<

晚上了，原本打算去打篮球的我，
因为身上还有很多事要办，所以没去。
突然，来了一个missed call…无名…
我便打回过去问是谁～
当时，我心突然犹豫着，在猜着他是谁…
他并没说出名字，我突然想起Y.M！！！
我就问是否是Y.M，对方盖我电话了～
我…我…我blur！我又打过去～
这次，对方根本不接我电话了！
我心一直想是真的是Y.M吗？但声音不像…
最后这个谜终于揭开了～原来是我Ipoh的朋友，Jeff
哈哈！^^

Erm…但，若当时真的是Y.M的话，我该如何呢？
啊，好乱哦！>.<
现在又想起Y.M，真的很想他…
但我根本联络不到他了～他走了～
不告而别得走了…
无论如何，希望他现在一切都很好～
最重要是，别累坏自己，睡得够，
那就好了。

好吧，话不多说了～
ZzZzZz……

他就是有那种我喜欢的感觉…的味道…嘻嘻！

2006-03-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

22/3/2006
今天辩论比赛蛮顺利～
虽然我们没赢，但一切都不重要。
重点是我们组员之间的团体精神，
这才值得让人人佩服哦！^^
虽然我病了，说话也有一点困难；
但我病得很爽！为什么？
因为好久没病了呀～一时病也不错哦！

回到家,感觉真的很累，好想睡觉，
但却不能…还有很多功课还没做…
若我睡觉的话，就会浪费很多时间，
那就不是更不值得吗？>.<
就这样我就呆呆…清理一下我的脑袋…
什么都不想，就是发呆…
突然电话响，原来是haur打来得～
跟他谈了一下，就去冲凉了～
然后上网…这时候，K.H sms来哦～
啊？haur帮我拿鞋子？然后给我？
当时的我真的很blur…不知道到底发生了什么事…

算了，话不多说我就继续做功课。
突然又来多一封sms,是haur send的～
我就打电话给他问他到底怎么啦～
原来他真的帮我拿了球鞋，然后想到我家给我。
哈哈，当时我真的怕他会迷路哦！
K.L的路不是很容易走，尤其是对他，
因为他是路痴！嘻嘻…^^

11:30p.m.haur终于找到我家了～
haur不只给了我球鞋和考卷纸，还给了“枇杷膏”！
好大瓶哦！！！感觉好像要毒死我一样…>.<
Erm…同时他还带了几位朋友～
好笑的是他其中一位朋友，（我不认识）
不知道叫什么名字，远看好可爱～
感觉会打扮，就是那种会时尚打扮的男生。
不久，他的朋友们就来38哦～
死38 haur就告诉他那位朋友刚才我对他的想法哦！
天啊，当时真的有一点paiseh…

那时后，我开始注意那所谓“可爱的男生”～
近近看他，更可爱哦！
我也发现到他是单眼皮的！可爱加上更可爱了！^^
他其实有一点国林学哥的味道…就是很微妙…>.<

之后我们去喝茶，哈哈，坐得好远哦…
也许是因为不认识，有点陌生，所以这样吧～
谈了一会儿，我心急来潮，好想驾车。
便就这样开haur的车兜风一下～
嗯，不知道为什么当驾着haur的车时，
感觉有点怪怪，也许不惯吧！
之后就好很多了～

过不久，我把车给haur的另一位朋友。
哇噻!他们疯了！好像从tanjung rambutan刚出来的病人哦！
太难以形容了！无话可说… >.< 怕怕！
看一看手表，哇！凌晨1点多了！
在多几个小时我还要去上课的咧！天啊，既然到现在还没睡！
话不多说，就说“拜拜”！^^

Wait!还没offline之前，我想对haur说声“谢谢！”
真麻烦你从巴生跑来K.L哦～
下次有机会的话，约你和你朋友去看电影吧！

ZzZzZzZzZz…

我很累又很忙…

2006-03-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

20/3/2006
今天开学哦！
但，我却没心情～
更恐怖的是，老师突然找我，
就告诉我星期三有辩论比赛哦！！！
天啊，我什么都还没准备好啊！
再加上我又病了…
感冒的关系，所以说话不流利…
但，我无法呆呆看着组员忙乱嘛～
好啦，辩就辩吧…！

21/3/2006
今天去学校，原本应该早早就去找老师谈辩论的东西。
但我很累，所以在班上偷睡了一会儿…
连下课时间我都还在睡觉～

下课完后，他们回班（我的同学）
突然，大喊～天啊，原来我鼻子BL了～
haiz...>.<
不久之后我又继续忙我辩论比赛的东西
回到家真的很累…

啊，不知该如何接下去了～
我先去谁吧！嘻嘻！ ^^

Y.M我会继续想办法联络你…
继续找你，找到你为止…

ZzZzZzZz...

我还好吗?

2006-03-19T20:14:00.000+08:00

19/3/2006
我病了～
感觉很不舒服…
我很少生病，我想是因为昨天的事吧…
真的不知道该如何做…
再加上明天开学哦～
haiz...顺其自然…
愿我不会想太多吧！

现在是中午，
心情很低落，
我想去睡觉好一点～
免得我又“自言自语”…

haiz...missing Y.M badly...>.<

不告而别的背影…好怀念…

2006-03-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

18/3/2006
今天是星期六…
Y.M off day 的一天…
一起身后，我一直都在联络他，
但他却还是一样没回应…

今天进贺在K.raya的popular book store做宣传
我原本想早一点去，
但因为等电话的关系,所以迟了出门～
到了那儿，一切已经结束了～
之后原本想38多一点关于亮的秘密，
但因为他赶时间，就回了～
只剩我和国权两人…
我们到burger king谈话。
突然，我想出一些“刺激”的游戏！
erm...skip this part...cause too many confusing things happened >.<

不久，我真的忍不住了～
便打算去ampang找Y.M…
路途中，我也告诉他朋友一声我已经on the way
突然，天空一片黑…
下起毛毛雨…同时也收到一封sms
是Y.M用他朋友手提send来的～
当时的我真的不知该如何形容…
总而言之，我心情就像当天的天气一样
一样那么的…haiz...无话可说…

就这样，在cahaya站下车，call文健出来喝茶…
haiz...没心情就是没心情，
想吃晚餐的胃口都没了～
喝了一杯milo就回家～
回家路上，我想了好多事！超多！
到家，躲进房里，就开始“自言自语”了～

不久之后，haur打电话来了～
erm...我其实真的不懂他到底在想什么，要做什么…
就这样在电话呆…呆了好久…

过了几个小时后，我入睡～
入睡时，也“自言自语”的很多～
算了，希望明天会更不同吧～！
ZzZzZzZz...

见到好多熟人哦…

2006-03-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

16/3/2006
今天Edward约我去门…为了庆祝我的生日…
哈哈，想不到雪琳学妹也参与一起哦…

说真的，今天当在街上走走时，
真的遇见好多面熟哦～
见到时真的有点piaseh...因为不知怎么打招呼…
哎哟，我想太多了～顺其自然吧～^^

同时也感谢Edward送给我的礼物哦！
好久没shopping了，现在又出江湖，真有点不惯>.<

7:30p.m.我终于回到家了～
感觉真的好累～话不多说，又去睡了～

17/3/2006
很早我就起床了～
但奇怪的是，我手上既然一直握着手提_
才想起，Y.M已经5天没联络我了…
haiz...让我蛮担心…不知该怎么做…

过不久，爸载我回家～
回我Jalan Ipoh的家,
天啊，原来这个床更好睡哦！
话不多说，我又又又睡了～嘻嘻_

ZzZzZzZz...>.<

我的生日＋下乡服务

2006-03-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

13/3/2006
haiz...
可说是我好像都没睡到就这样准备出发了…
我好想睡一会儿，但怕会迟到，那就算吧！

今天是下乡服务营哦！
有点怕怕，也很期待…
其实我想多写关于这个营，
但有些事情留在心里感觉比较美妙，比较特别…
所谓好的回忆留在心里嘛～
所以我不说吧～！
无论如何，在此也感谢学记朋友为我庆祝生日哦！
谢谢！^^

oh!差点忘了！今天SPM成绩上板哦！
不知道各位朋友的成绩会是怎样呢…
erm...Y.M...你怎么不联络我呢？
虽然晚上你send了一封sms给我，
但我还是很担心你…

14/3/2006
我又做野猫来了…又不睡觉…
也许若我真的睡了，都不安心吧～
感觉好多事还没办好，所以怕怕…
不久之后，下乡服务继续下去～
erm...我不知道是否骂20届太过分了…
骂到人人开始怕我了…甚至19届…
但其实这一切都是为了他们的好～
haiz...解释没用的，只好让时间证明一切吧！

haiz...Y.M又没联络我…
不知他发生了什么事…担心…
希望我能抽出时间，去看一看他到底发生什么事了～

15/3/2006
哇哈哈，也许我太累了～
终于肯入睡，而还睡得很久…
感觉不想起身了…呵呵…

今天已是下乡服务营的最后一天…
好不舍得大家…学记一家亲…好怀念哦…
无论如何，相信还有机会再见面的！
等着瞧吧！哈哈！

我没回J.Ipoh家，而我先回Kuang家（我有两间家）
一回到家，话不多说，就ZzZzZzZz了！
哈哈！亲爱的床，你实在太棒了！^^

晚上了，我起床了…
但可怕的是，家人都不在家！
天啊！他们去了那儿？！
不久之后，爸回来了～
啊！！！10年以来！！！爸终于庆祝我的生日！
弟妹们提我高兴～我也感动…
虽然刚刚睡醒的我还蛮blur blur的～
但还很清楚的是，爸终于有时间庆祝我的生日！
10年了～等的好苦哦～
现在一切现实了！太棒！

迟完蛋糕，我又继续睡…
哈哈累嘛～没办法，只好睡多一点～
同时我也一直在联络Y.M…
但他却到现在没回复我…这让我更担心了…

haiz...好了…
要睡了…晚安…

我的梦：希望明天Y.M会联络我…

原来我耐心力蛮强哦!

2006-03-12T20:06:00.000+08:00

今天原本与lion head有约了~
但不知道为什么到下午了,他却还没联络我...
原来他昨晚"偷鸡"来,所以迟起床...哈哈,开玩笑啦~
当时我在游泳池附近与我ex-schoolmate静璇在聊天
也打听了其它朋友的消息,
心感到安心许多了...^^

3点,lion head终于call来了!
可惜他说暂时没车,所以要等...
但想不到的是我既然等他到凌晨,
他都还没来!!!
原来他当时在与其他朋友看电影!可恶的家伙!
算了,我有得就是耐心...所以不计较太多吧~!
而我还在忙着接电话,及回sms哦...
哈哈,过十二点了咧...
我已经是寿星女!哇哈哈!
但也蛮可怜...到4点凌晨还未能睡...

天啊,不知等下是否有力坚持下去...
因为很快的,将面对下乡服务营了...
话不多说,已经4点了!快睡一会儿
再起床做最后的准备吧! 加油!

ZzZzZz...

我忙乱其中一天

2006-03-11T20:05:00.000+08:00

11/3/2006

今天一大早我已起床了...
5点啊! 为何我那么早起床?
aiyo...都是因为今天学校有运动会哦~
感觉非常非常得累...
但我还是要继续...天啊!

哇!今天成绩很突出哦!
我在怡保路女中读了三年的书
今天可真是我第一次见我们RUMAH获得全场总冠军!!!
历史以来,今年我们获得最多项目赢家者
好开心哦!!!
但是,我还不能那么轻松哦...
因为现在要赶下去C2会议及联谊会会议...
已经2点了,我还在巴士上...
2:50P.M....我刚到BURGER KING...
全场的人都等着我了...感到非常不好意思哦...>.<
突然外面下大雨...
真的好恐怖因为看起来好象7点了
但其实才3:30而已哦~
哈哈,我们学记38学会今天也有开会!
哇哈哈!笑场一整天哦!

6点会议结束...
我还没能回家,因为还要去安邦...
我6:20就已抵达安邦
但我约人的时间是7:30,
意思说我还要等很久了...
但我最最生气的一件事是....
Y.M既然迟到!!!
今天是我一生中等最久的一位!!!
我通常最多会等15分钟
现在就已破记录!
haiz...算了~反正没什么好生气的~
因为他也不想迟到的,都是他老板的错 (嘻嘻...)

8:50p.m.他终于来了~
心疼...他看起来好累哦...
我无法做任何事,只能陪他聊天~
真想不到,他还蛮大胆...
今天更让我对一切事更有信心
感谢他今天的"勇气"哦...>.<
10:30p.m.了,天黑得不能再黑了~
看来我真的必须回家了,
要不然妈妈会很担心...
那一刻起,我好不舍得哦...
但还是要说byebye咯~
希望下次还有机会再见面! ^^

11:00p.m.我终于回到家了~
全身好累!妈妈也罗嗦了一会儿...就放了我...
好累...我想早点睡好了~
学记的事明天再继续做吧~
晚安...

i'm not a strong woman!

2006-03-09T19:27:00.000+08:00

i'm not a strong woman! i'm just an ordinary girl...>.<
haiz...recently there's too much BAD thing happened everywhere
it just made me going become like a crazy girl!
erm...as far, i had cried almost everyday...
why i cried? cause there's too much unhappy thing happened around me...

6/3/2006
today i almost late for school!
feel like so lazy for school anwyays~
actually not lazy is tired...i'm too tired...
now i hav alot of thing need to be settle a.s.a.p
my buku laporan haven finish yet, school sport's day coming soon
AND my class still having the worst problem ever!
i donno why, everytime i'll be tired of pujuk my classmates
specially my buddies that's always hang out with me
they sometime are too emotional...
1st case, early in the morning i already not really in good mood...
maybe because during perhimpunan some teachers had say something that i hate to heard gua...
so after went back to class, H.D told me that she wanted go for duty at school field
so i asked for her slip keluar, but she said she don hav it
so i don't allow her out...she turn to be upset about it...
later, she started being cold to me liao...even the way she talked also like hell...>.<

2nd case, S.T are too busy and don't hav time to go for tuition
but she already promise W.X that she will go for tuition with her
but however, S.T really don hav time for it, so i advise S.T directly tell her problems to W.X
so hope that she won't angry...
but later...when i was doing my homework,
Ga Foong called me, she asked me why S.T cry!
omg! since when S.T cried and i donno de?!
so i rushly go forward for S.T..after i reached S.T,
H.D shouted at me " hey, let her cold down!"
WTF! if u said let her cold down then why u keep talking to her?!
ok, since u can shout at me, so am i too!
"Fine, since this what u guys wanted, so just go on!" i shout at them.
i was really angry that time...
same time i also had shout at W.X...
she was angry with S.T, but the problem now is...
i'm not S.T, so why u can;t talk with me gentle abit ler?!
i already so tired, busy doing stuff now they done something childish things...
i just can't hold it, so i cried...
i cried just because of my classmates that's always makes alot problems
they are too childish sometimes...
later, teacher is here~
teacher asked me why i'm crying, but i didn't answer her...
i just take out my nametag from pocket and told she that i wanna letak jawatan...
that's all....

3rd case, after i told teacher i wanted to letak jawatan
she had scolded the whole class...
i know alot of teachers were really care about me
even sometimes they know i'm too tired or busy
they won't give me too much stress...
while teacher was scolding them, S.T already sat beside me
shit, i don't need u on this time! get off!
but unexpectable, teacher also CRIED too!!!
omg...i felt so sorry for that...
i don't really wanna make situation become worst...

after these all happened...
i promise to myself i won't cry at school anymore
even i had cried that day in class,
but luckily nobody saw my ugly face lol >.<

7/3/2006
happy birthday to my brother! muaakks ^^
today at school i didn't talk to S.T and H.D for one words!
just no mood! i'm still angry anyways...
don't said that i'm "small gas" but it's because of u guys attitude...
today i'm busy, not in class...
there's still got alot homeworks waiting for me to settle up
haiz...>.<

oh ya! thanks to K.H
cause u r the 1st one wished me happy birthday for 2006!
even it's still early, but i still appreciate it ^^
although u can't attened for the coming camp,
but however we all still will missing u badly...
specially me! u r my A-Mei, so of course i will miss u ^^
hope u can score better results on ur coming exam!
all the best! ^^

8/3/2006
i just donno how to say already...
really pissed off!
again my class had made another subject teacher cried
i had a small talk with the teacher....
and i know what she thinking...
haiz...i'm the class monitor, so i responsible for all of this...
my class had made alot problems...
is all because i didn't really take good care of them...
sorry teacher...i almost cry too...but i hold it
cause i already promise myself that i won't cry anyways!
and i will do it!
So i walked back to class i advise them and also scoled them
not really scold lar, just "up" my voice only...
however, al least they know they're wrong...abit lol...>.<

9/3/2006
today H.D and S.T had tried to talk with me
even i had talk abit with them, but i still angry
not 100% angry, just hate their attitude that day~
haiz...

just now Jin He had just called me to discuss about the coming camp stuff
and we also had crap something lol ^^
after few minutes, rongyao called me too...
haha, rongyao are still the same rongyao,
always said something sound stupid or cold...>.<
hey, sorry lar if u can't "un" my english
i know my english really poor lol
now i'm trying to brush up my english lol
after finish talked with rongyao, jie yi called me...
also had talk about same topic...
all is about the coming camp...

seems like there's still alot of thing i need to settle up...
specially for coming school sport's day!
very excited! cause it is my last school sport's day in secondary school!
hope my rumah will win!
now my rumah rating is No.1, i hope it will keep tills the end...^^

haiz...
feel weird why recently i didn't write about my love story?
do u guys know why i didn't write about it?
haiz...
it's all because too COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP >.<
i really donno how to settle it up...
kecuali love problems, all others i will settle up
but when love problems came, i hav no idea what should i do...

however, i gonna stop here lol
tired liao...>.<
and sorry if u guys can't understand what i'm typing
but i'll feel happy for it!
cause it is better only me know what i'm typing
cause i don't really wish others ppl know about my stuff anwyays >.<
anyways, 886!

p/s: few more days to my "b"...i donno whether should i happy or sad...haiz...

我的天空今天有点灰...

2006-03-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

4/3/2006 MidValley+讲电话

今天我原本该与Y.M出门,
但我一时有事做,而他也是,所以取消了~
之后我才记得今天学记会去看"小孩不笨2"
原本不打算去的我最后也去了 ^^
这部戏太多感动的场面哦!我好喜欢这部戏!
哈哈,好的!上影了,我再去看多一次哦!

看完戏后,我们便去吃午餐
选了半天才选到地方坐下吃...而我差点快要饿死了! >.<
我,进开,尚骏和国荣同一桌子
谈得蛮开心!一直笑不停哦!
尤其一谈到 "baby是怎么来得?" 的时候
我们都狂笑一场!实在好笑了啦!
我好期待它上影因为迫不急待要再看多一次! ^^

吃完后我们便去走一走街~
我看到好多美丽的东西,
而脑海突然想起Y.M...
刚过生日不久的他,我既然还没买礼物
所以趁这机会买哦!
但由于我怕我会买他不喜欢的东西
便call他好几次,但他不接电话...
连sms也留了好多封,却没回应...
真令我快气死了!算了!懒得理他!不买!

之后,差不多4点我们就回了~
我相信大家都累了吧...>.<
晚上我上网后,haur打电话给我
当时我真的不知道为何要开始玩这游戏
事情一来,真的难挡吧~ 就这样我与他玩了游戏...
我不知道我是否会太过分...
但我很清楚我在做的一切...

我们谈了很多,而我也得到的答案也多
只少我们也解决及说明一切事...
嗯,感谢他配合我玩这游戏
我说过了,以后再也不会问你任何问题
相信我...我真的不会再问你了...
而我会不会对你冷,你猜猜看吧~ ^^
相信你也该懂了答案...
不久,我们就没再谈...因为我不知该如何接下去
只好保持冷漠...默认...

5/3/2006 联谊会开会+超可爱的公仔

说真的,我应该感谢K.H
因为若他今早没联络我的话
我相信我还在睡着觉吧!哈哈!
很大可能会很迟才出门哦~ ^^
冲凉之后,准备一切便出门了~

我怕怕!我既然是第一个人到burger king咧!
等了15分钟终于看见国荣到了~ ^^
慢慢得很多人也到了...
但我们却在2点才开始开会哦!
因为...大家看起来好饿...嘻嘻...>.<

其实...有小小状况发生...
我也不懂得如何说或解释...
haiz...一切就是让我感觉很XXX...
算了吧,既然要这样,我也不必勉强...
同时,Y.M既然sms我了~
哇...他实在太过分了!
既然昨天发生的事,今天傍晚才说对不起!
好坏哦! >.<

开完会,伟伦突然说要去看猪猪公仔
而我先去popular...看一看我要的书
可惜还是一样没有...haiz...
之后,我和洁仪去公仔店找其他人
哇!!!好多可爱的公仔哦!
虽然我并不是很喜欢公仔,
但看见那么多可爱的公仔,心也开始动了!

当我一踏入那间店时
第一吸引我的是...公仔似花一样
做为一束束的...感觉好浪漫!
价钱方面也蛮"美"...RM39.90一束...
haiz...
若我有男朋友的话,
我一定要他买给我! 可惜...我却没有男朋友...

第二吸引我的是...超级大的公仔!!!
抱起来真的暖暖的...好舒服哦!
我真的打算要买下它...
但当我看看价钱...haiz...
RM139.90咧!!!我身上只有RM100...
怎么买呢?天啊...太不公平了...>.<
就这样,心痛痛的就回家...

6:30p.m我已到我家外面的shopping complex
突然!!!下大雨!!!害得我没得回家了...
肚子开始饿起来,便找地方吃
我不知道是否心情不好的关系
我一个人既然可吃到RM30++
天啊...我钱飞走了...>.<
也发觉到我在两个星期里
既然用了RM200++...haiz...
我看多数是用在买朋友的生日礼物吧~
所以那么快就用了很多...

erm...时间过得真快哦!
SPM成绩也快要出了...
甚至下乡服务也是一样...
haiz...我也不知道要说些什么了~
好吧,我不写了~
到此停按键...bye!

p/s:不必倒数了...没心情了...>.< 心灰意冷...

sorry...

2006-03-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

haiz...
actually i was thinking to stop blogging for a period
but sometime i really wanted to say it out
even just say it in my blog...
so i start blogging lol ^^

1st, i'm wanna say sorry to Y.M...
i'm sorry for everything i had done...
next time i'll arrage my time more carefully
this is my promise to u...
is already been 6 months...we haven meet...
i so miss u...hope u will be fine all the time~
i care about u...
just because of our shake friendship
u always will be my best fren tills forever ^^
and thanks for sms'ing with me these day
even u r busy sometimes...
thanks for everything u had done...
i really appreciate it
i promise u, next time i belanja u KFC,ok?
wakakaka ^^

2nd, sorry to haur...
actually, today is my 1st time drop at ur blog
i really donno that u will mind about all we had gone through...
after i read ur blog
i really confused...upset...
sometime i asked myself did u x me?
but i think that's impossible...
because i knew that there's a gal that u waiting forward...
however, thanks for ur asnwer~
even the answer might not come from ur bottom heart
but at least u had settle one of my problem...
i'm blur and confused now....
sorry cause not chatting with u...
promise u, i will chat with u later after i settle my other problem ^^

3rd, sorry to k.h...
i realise that these day u had tried to talk with me
just that i ingore u...
sorry for that...i don't really mean it anyways...
just that after the last letter u gave me...
i think i should stop doing something stupid
even if i didn't do it, i sure one day u will do the same thing too
to aviod problem might will be stupid move...
but now i will try to settle it
yup, finally today we had spoke...smiling and etc..etc...
feel happy and glad ^^
i really miss ur smile...and everytime...
but from now on, i will just missing u through my heart
however, i wish u all the best and take care

4th, special sorry to A-Z...
i know that i shouldn't told leng about it
but...i donno why i tell it out lol
i feel so sorry to u...
from last friday untill today u haven speak with me...
even a word...so so sad...
but finally today we had "chuan zi tiao"
and i'm happy with it...
no matter how, i won't force u for anything liao
cause i know i just should be beside u
help u when u need me
even u didn't need any help,
as a fren, i still will stand beside u always...

haiz...
i donno what else to say...
however i will try to settle my problems a.s.a.p~
specially my class problems!
aiks! almost kill me few days ago
but luckily now all back to normal
hope that i won't happen again >.<
to all my classmates..
i really really wished that u guys will be good
special be good to teachers...
no matter what happen to u guys,
me as class monitor and as a fren of u guys
always will stand beside u guys and help u guys!
that's is my promise to all of u! ^^

ok lol...others i will keep in my heart lol ^^
if i write too much in my blog
i know there must be alot ppl will ask me questios
haha, bye lol!

p/s: countdown for my b.o.x wor! wahaha!

Y.M生日快乐!

2006-02-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

哈哈,今天一大早就已起床了
感觉蛮舒服,空气是有一点污染而已
对,今天是C2的会议
但想不到我却迟到了...>.<
迟了15分钟,但会议才刚开始不久
就没什么错过哦~

开会时,不停的和荣耀谈话
但当然也有专心听20届
开会时并没什么特别发生
只是计划书的问题而已
相信下次会更好吧!

开会完毕后,我们去吃早餐
大家看起来蛮饿,大家也吃的不少
吃完后,我便送荣耀到PWTC(因为他不懂路)
他说要去开会...
头头,等菁菁来时蛮久的~
我是无所谓,虽然约了朋友
但我都惯了迟到,所谓的VIP嘛~嘻嘻...^^

之后,我便搭TAXI去朋友家...
erm...其实我记得今天是Y.M的生日
但说真的,我是有点怕怕
我跟他的关系蛮复杂,我怕又有事发生
但最后我还是提起了勇气打电话给他
哈哈,谈起话时我还真的很开心
虽然我还很气他,但今天是他生日
所以就算了,不计较往事吧~

Y.M, 谢谢你今天把我们之间的问题解决了
我终于感到很轻松...
我真的希望你今天所说的一切
都是真,而不是假...
虽然我们距离上和时间上蛮有问题
但希望一切并不会阻碍我们

今天我有点累
不知道要写什么了~
明天我有比赛,祝我成功吧~
晚安!

life are so unfair!

2006-02-25T15:49:00.000+08:00

omg...
feel very very tired and sad recently
hate back to school lol
i thought i gonna be happy back to school since not in school for whole week
but when i reached at school...
full of projects, homeworks, this and that arounding me!
1st i already late for my class
why? because dropped to met every teacher who look forward for me those day when i'm not in school
after i finish it all, back to my class
and guess what?!
my table was already tinggi macam bukit tinggi!!!
full of buku laporan, folio, homeworks, papers and more!!!

haiz...
these all just made me no mood to study lol
how on earth i gonna concentrate for my study?
there alot of stuff i need to settle up lol...
and ya, i know 24/2 is P.L birthday
but what can i do? *shame*
neh...pass P.L a msg enough, right?
today Saturday and still need go to school
but i think mostly of my time i sepnd on doing my stuff
but not studies/homeworks...even i got liltle time for ZzZz....haha!
and...i feel upset when i gets my monthly test papers...
some papers i get T.H= tidak hadir, cause i'm not in class cause of others activities
my marks also getting worst...so sad!
started from form 2, my rating in class are No.1 untill form 4 still No.1
but now i'm form 5, and i feel that i can't get No.1 anymore....
why? cause i loose confident lol
donno how to explain...just no confident lor...

ya, life are unfair
why S.T just liltle bit tired, B.X and others so care about S.T
why i'm not been care by anybody?
i know u guys might will say that,
"Iris, u'r tough, hard working and we believe in u...etc...etc..."
but! hav u guys think that maybe sometime i need someone to care about me too?!
pls don't ask me to find bf...cause the point is none about bf...
the person i needa is u guys...specially my classmates...
i know i'm energetic, hard working, can haddle all stuff...
but...sometime i really wished someone come oever me
and talk/chat with...let me hav a relaxing time too...
however, i didn't mad at u guys lol
because i know S.T are weak...need more help than me
ya, i admit that i also will care about S.T more than others...^^

oh ya, tomorrow C2 meeting...and also Y.M's birthday
getting nervous...cause i donno what i should u...
should i call him? sms him? find him? or do nothing?
i really miss Y.M very much...haiz...started suffer again...
however, as long Y.M are happy, i'll happy too
cause in my heart he'll never been forgotten/never change...
why? because i just can't find other ppl that suitable than him...>.<
haha...am i silly? keke ^^

tomorrow early in the morning need to go for C2 meeting
later after finish meeting need to go B.X's house for her early birthday party
ya, wish me luck tomorrow...
cause i afraid i can't arrage my time well lol
and afraid that during meeting got problems or when the party got problems...
Choi! nonsense >.<
haha, ok stop here lol!
bye!

Y.M, i'll always 30...and 20...

ended finally!!!

2006-02-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

wow...finally our Zone Sentul Athletic competition had ended this evening
so happy that our school had won alot of medals
seems like my athletic reports gonna be interesting lol ^^

in this whole week,
i been very very tired and busy
and i found out that my eyes getting pain and red...
oppsss, i had scared my schoolmates lol
sorry guys! >.<

ya, actually on the 1st day of competition i didn't hav any competition
but why u went to stadium?
erm...its all because of k.h...
lately, kai hooi been "cold war" to me
i donno what i had done thats made k.h treated me that way
i feel very very upset with it...
i went to stadium for whole day just to support k.h
as k.h best fren, i think i should be beside k.h all the time
cause i know during competition
u will feel that u really needs alot alot of supports
so..just same as k.h situation

after last week after Valentine's day
something bad happened between me and k.h
so i think this might be the reason why k.h treated me like that lol
erm...i and k.h are best fren
mostly i spend alot of time with k.h during practise time
but after "the thing" happened
k.h being so cold to me...
haiz...i really confused with it
1st, i thought k.h should understand about it
but after kim leng told me whole thing
then i only realise about k.h problems
anyways, can't salahkan sesiapapun...
cause in this case there's nobody had done wrongly lol

i tried to have a talk with k.h
but seems like situation not allow me to do that lol
today, i was waiting for them (k.h and Ee Man)
when they reached at stadium....Yar Ley was with them too
omg, hard for me to talk with k.h liao!
cause as i know, Yar Lay is a bit 38...over abit lar..
even i know that she was a good fren of k.h too
but i dont wish she know anything probem between me and k.h
so...no chace to have a talk with k.h again!!!

around 6:30p.m. i reached home...i felt blur...
i was confused...whether i should directly call or sms k.h
i really wanted to settle up this whole thing
last, i choose to write a letter...
after i finish done writing the letter...
i was thinking...if i give this letter to k.h
will Yar Ley be around k.h and spying on it?!
so, i decided when tomorrow i give k.h the letter
i will remind k.h DO NOT let anybody know about it
including Yar Ley of course~ even she is good fren of k.h

oh...so tired!!! and i have alot of homeworks to do...
omg, i donno whether i hav time to finish it all be4 my next competition or not
cause yesterday when i when to school to give my class teacher letter
i met my Forum advise teacher~
she told me that forum competition are coming soon
so i, as the presiden of Forum need to get ready for whole skrip...
haiz...so stressed...
beside that, not only school stuff
even xueji too...there're alot more works i need to settle up

haiz...i really wanted to take a long rest...
but if i stop now...soon there will be more works for me
thats mean i can't stop even for a step...
i need to finish my steps till the end of my line to success...
oh ya, i heard that SPM results will out on 13 march (same as my birthday)
i suddenly think about Y.M
cause this sunday 26/2 is his birthday
and guess what...i donno what should i do...
but i miss him so much...that's all i know...

haiz...one more thing...
tomorrow 24/2 is P.L 17th birthday
erm..should i sms P.L?
i'm really confused abou it...haiz...
however...let time prove it lol...
gonna stop here, tata...

p/s: Si Ba Gong, where are u? i really wanted to hav a long long talk with u...but when i call u, u always with Sau.Y...i'm not jealous with it, but why can't u arrange time to spend with me? however, i'm still waiting for ur call...

Pictures!

2006-02-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

Here some pics that i would like to share with u guys~ hope u guys like it ^^ for me these pics are very meaningful~ why? haha, this is secret of xueji family >.< haha! ENJOY!

学记2006第一次培训课程

2006-02-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

今天是学记第一次为20届办的培训课程...
哇,我好忙乱哦!
一大早,我先去学校MEETING是为了将来临的田径比赛
但MEETING还没结束,我已走人了~
赶时间去CENTRE MARKET与学记们集合

大约在9:30我已经到达了~
但真想不到的是既然还有人比我还要迟到!
一来到,我第一见到的是K.H
同时与其它学记也谈了起来
K.H突然提到荣耀
因为当时荣耀还没到~所以他觉得奇怪...
但过不久之后,荣耀和他三位朋友出现了...
哈哈,既然顾着说话忽略了他的朋友
真感到不好意!!! 更何况我又不认识他的朋友...

过不久,巴士来了!
我明明就是第一辆巴士,但被换去第三辆~
haiz...原本还以为会闷,但还好大家都有各话题可以一起分享! ^^
哦,我才想起荣耀带的朋友是来自日本
说真的,我觉得当时大家都在沟通上出现了问题...
还好一切都不严重...(因为他们有电动字典,方便翻译)
头头我没那么兴趣跟他们说太多话,
但看见荣耀那一幅脸,变心软了...帮了他...
其实跟他们谈话感觉蛮不错
同时让我更了解日本仔的想法哦!嘻嘻...^^

之后,我们终于抵达了我们的目的地~
感觉怕怕,因为我师公在场嘛~ >.<
让我最气的事是...
20届站在后面听不到,并没什么主动
他们不会找空位!不好好把握时间问我师公问题...
算了,再加上空间也蛮小的...
我便去后面吹一下风~感觉舒服多了~
当时荣耀和他朋友也在那儿休息
顺便就拍了几张照片...更可恶的事是...!!!
荣耀说我矮哦!因为那两位人本仔才16岁
但却比我高...哎哟,很正常的咧男生比女生高...
荣耀还说,若他们要交女朋友的话
千万不能找我这一类型哦!因为我常常会捏人!
哈哈,荣耀啊荣耀...你有听过
"骂是疼,打是爱"吗?我捏你是为你好
你应该感到幸福的咧!嘻嘻...
我应该说所有被我捏过的人都应该感到幸福哦! ^^

结束采访之后,我们回报馆...
当时祖仪与一位日本仔开始甜蜜起来了!
看起来蛮好笑哦!
荣耀,他三位朋友,祖仪和美棋没吃午餐
因为他们赶时间去SHOPPING..哈哈...
就这样再没有机会联络那三位新朋友了~
无论如何,今天可说是有个蛮好的回忆
认识了新朋友!三个新朋友哦! ^^

之后,学记活动还是一样进行
首先,我们在食堂吃午餐
一边吃,一边笑!我肚子快要暴了!哈哈!
相信大家听到我笑声也快要耳聋了吧! >.<
later,我们回去礼堂进行我们小小的检讨会
我希望所有20届的学弟学妹会将今天我们学哥学姐所说的话记起来,
当教训或磨练...一切为你们好...

结束培训课程,到了CENTRE MARKET我们去吃晚餐
进开真令我快要气死了
说话一半一半,真搞不懂他...
进开,你还欠我一个明确的答案哦!
我一定会等你!哇哈哈!
吃完了,我开始累了~
回家路上很塞车...而我脑海里...
不停的倒带今天一整天的行程...感觉蛮开心...
突然也想起Y.M...haiz...不知他现在如何了...
应该还是忙着工作吧~
同时,也想起今天认识的三位新朋友...
希望有机会再见吧!不是"再见"而是"再见"...明白吗?
哈哈,我blur了...嘻嘻....>.<

haiz...我眼睛开始变小了
是时候我去睡吧...
好啦,到此停笔...

Happy Valentine's Day

2006-02-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's day to all my frens and all human around the world!
today was a meaningful/wonderful day i had ever!

1stly, i wanna thanks to all those had sms me 12 o'clock this morning
u guys really had gave me a big suprise
cause i thought might nobody will remember me on this special and sweet celebration
but unbeliaveable! thank u alot!
this morning, i received alot of sms
and one thing that i "shock" about is...
K.H sms'ed me too! i just can't believe he will sms me!
this is the main reason why i can't sleep
because for me it's too sweet even it just a sms...

2nd, i'm here to wish my mummy "Happy Birthday"!
cause my mum was born on 14th Feb, that's same as Valentine's day too!
early in the morning around 5 a.m. i woke up
directly walked to my mum's room to wish her~ *hugs*
yup, i'm still happy with the sms that K.H sent to me lol

3rd, today i really enjoyed my day very much!
after i stepped in school...
the 1st person i saw this Kai Hooi!
as u guys information, Kai hooin is my bf in school...only!
i mostly spend my time together with Kai Hooi
and Kai Hooi also was the 1st person who gave me CHOCOLATES!
too much chocolates Kai Hooi had gave me! i love chocolates!
so sweet...^^ and i'm very very happy with it!
later i walked back to my class
on the way, i saw A-Z walking back to class too
i shouted at A-Z and turned looked at me
A-Z ran to my direction and wish me Happy Valentine's day
hehe...so cute!
after i reached in class
my desk already full of chocolates by my classmates...>.<
later A-Z called me and also had gave me 1 bar of chocolates
omg, more chocolates i had now! happy!

4th, after school i thought wanna directly go back home since is my mum's birthday
but i almost forgotten that i already promise someone
1st, i promise Kai Hooi that i will hav lunch together...
yeah, however really enjoyed my lunch~ ^^
around 3p.m. Kai hooi's mum came...
then i continue my date with others..keke...
walk...walk...walk...already 7p.m.
i think is the time for me to go liao~

but...i'm not going home yet
i need go to a place that i already promise someone...
around 7:30p.m. i reached there
i didn't see him at all there...but...i saw something...
around the place that we always meet there got a letter and 2 bars of chocolates
i opened the letter and read...same time my tears falling down...
he didn't show up there because he need to go work
but however i feel touched...cause he still remember the promise that we had said...
half an hour later, i walked back home...
i so miss the days we both had spend together...even in short period...

reached home, keep all my chocolates in peti sejuk
i counted liao~ total i got 13 bars chocolates and 1 flower...
and i think i had ate too much chocolates today..feel getting fat now~ >.<
after take my bath, i on9...untill now...
however, going to sleep soon anyways...^^

now...suddenly miss Y.M...
donno how is him now...still working or celebrating valentine ler?
i don't dare to call him neither sms him...
i afraid the same problem might will happen again between us
so i think is better we just keep like this...
that is don't contact each other...just let us hav time...i belive time will prove it...
but however, i just wanna say miss him very much...
no matter if he already hav new gf or not,
still wishing him hav a wonderful valentine...
his birthday coming soon too...that is on 26th Feb...
as i know also same date as C2 meeting...
haiz....

lastly, again i wanna wish all single, married, in relationship ppl all around the world
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! love u guys! *mmuuaaakkk*

unbelieveable

2006-02-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

as usual today went to school
1st, i thought today i wanna skip my traning cause i feel very tired, sleep and LAZY!
but after teacher meet me, he asked me to help him out during training
so, of course i didn't reject him lol...

after school, around 1:30p.m. i went to school field
and i found out nobody there~! i'm the 1st one there!
omg...those juniors should beware! keke....^^
few minutes larer, they finally there~
like usual, we start out training by running for 1500m 1st,
after that then only warming up...
actually, i feel kinda headache with juniors...specially form1 and form 2
they still like chidren, must treat them nicely, if not they will merajuk de...

haiz...training start from 2p.m. untill 7:00 p.m....so damn tired!
finally 7:30p.m. i reached home! miss my bed anyways! ^^
oh ya, kim leng also follow me back home cause out there was trafic'in jam
since my house near school, so she drop at my house 1st,
later her mum will come and pick her up~

erm...actually during the time i spend together with kim leng
we had talked/chat alot...alot of topics lol
kinda happy chat with her anyways since we didn't chat for ages hence...>.<
she knew some of my new secret and so am I...
but one thing that i don't like is...
started when i was form3 untill now i already form 5
she still said that i'm leng lui! i dislike it~
actually i think kim leng also leng lui, just she don't hav confidence on herself lol
she keep saying she kealous at me, but i think i'm the one might be jeolus on her lol

haiz...i'm blur and don't know what else i should say to her
ppl might will think i got alot ppl like/love, but actually just normal
nothing special anyways...cause i'm also ordinary girl just like other girls does!

oh ya, tomorrow is Valentine's Day~
and i heard most of my frens might gonna celebrate with their bf
but i still don know who i should celebrate with...
hard for me ro decide anyways...
i think i might just stay at home lol!
thats the only best way to settle up all the problems...
but just one thing that,
i hope tomorrow there will be something suprise or anything happens!
not must happen on me, might to others ppl ^^

Lastly, wish u all hav a sweet and lovely Valentine's Day ever 2006!

C1会议

2006-02-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

一大早,我已起身了...准备所有一切去开会...
原本我真的没心情去的,但最后还是去了~
真想不到我既然会搭错车!
明明是自己的地盘,但都可以搭错车!觉得我好笨哦!
因此,我也带上了墨镜为了隐瞒"幕后故事"...

一到达那儿,我还是像平常一样,静静的做在一旁...
haiz...really no mood anyways...
不久,就开始开会了~
当开会时,我心情还是一样的...一样的那么down...
突然,我面前出现了一张纸
转身看一看是谁给,但却已不见人影了...
当我一开那张纸时,我突然开心了起来!
做在我面前的文龙也被吓到了!
哈哈! ^^不见人影也无所谓,因为我知道是谁给了~
真谢谢他!虽然是一张普通的纸,但对我来说我已心满意足了~Lem Hom The best!

开完会后,我们去Mc' Donald吃午餐~
haiz...我还是一样的...没心情所以不吃...
在那儿我们也谈了很多~感觉开始累了~
荣耀他比较早走,大约2:30 p.m.就走了
其余的,还继续谈话吧~
过不久,大家吃完了,我也打算要回家...
但却被他们拉住,说要去lowyat走走
天啊,说真的,我当时真的没心情
但看到他们那幅脸,心软的我还是跟了他们一起去

抵达了那儿不久,亿佩和锦濠不知去哪里接任人...而我,国荣和文健便先去arcade玩~
过了一端时间,祖仪也出现了~
玩得傻傻之后,我们便去书店...(我其实也不知道为何去书店哦!)
在那儿,锦濠拿了一本书给我看,重点是在那本书的名称...
虽然如此,这并没什么意思...因为他就是那么的无聊!
haiz...我今天重觉得心不在焉,做什么都blur blur的~
就这样的顺便听一听祖仪的"故事"哦~
一提到她的故事,我突然想到我的故事了!
啊!顶不顺啦!真觉得很烦咧!真的很很很烦啊!
我越想越伤心,越想越想哭...又开始更没心情了~
就这样...我开始不出声...因为我怕突然眼泪忍不住就会流下来...

haiz...我不知道该如何继续写blog了,因为真没心情...
刚才八点左右才回到家~就上网直到现在...
erm...刚才荣耀有对我说一句话,我听了真的差一点哭...但没哭啦~
那就是:

i dun ask y girl cry......i will let them cry......

虽然觉得有点好笑/感动,但还是谢谢他~
荣耀,我们永远都是一世的好朋友!友谊永固!
haha,当然少不了其它学记哦! friendship forever!

erm...我不知道要写什么了~
好吧,到次停笔!

omgness!

2006-02-07T18:03:00.000+08:00

school reopen again! today alot ppl didn't come at school
might because late sleep last night lol ^^
as usual, chinese new year lol!

finally yesterday backie from holidays~
whole week not at home, kinda miss my bed anyways
while my mum crapping/complain cause was alot of phone calls for me
and the worst is there're alot are from guys call
my mum keep saying that they all are my bf, keep saying i hav too many bf
keep asking which one is my "real bf"...>.<
omg, can't believe my mum gone "siao" with those phone calls, haha!

erm...
these days i found out some of my teachers getting pissed off of me
why? because i keep busy doing other teacher work, less care their works
aiyo, i also donno what should i do...
how come with only one 'Ya Xuan' do so many works in one time lol
sometime i need time to rest anyways...
haiz...blur blur liao...

now the nightmare is here!
my athletic competition coming very soon
everyday need stayback for training
haiz...busy lor...tired too!
the worst is!!!!!
unbelievable that athletic competition might will drop on Valentine's Day!
ar.......so sad!
i know, i don have bf so nothing big deal with it
but at least let me feel the 1st lonely Valentine...>.<
2006 is my 1st year with bf after i had my 1st bf 2 years ago...

now it just made me feel like wanna a bf
but however, still need to search for the right person anyways
keke...see who unluckily will be my patner one day...
lol! maybe 5 years later! wakaka!

ok lar, geeting tired now
will update my blog next time
lastly, gambatte Iris, u can do it just like "Nike can do it" too~
keke^^, byebye!

一首简单的歌

2006-02-05T10:54:00.000+08:00

BOOM！今天又跟学记朋友出街哦～
哈哈，我还是像以前一样，喜欢迟到。嘻嘻...^^
我大约在11:35a.m.到达MidValley了，
但因为我没去过那儿的唱K场，所以CALL人来救我吧～
原本打算CALL文龙，但怕他们又乱想，
所以最后CALL了荣耀。

过不久高高的荣耀出现了～
一进到唱K场，看见其他人开始傻掉了～
也许是因为唱了太多吧！
嘻嘻...他们还没知道我真正的面目哦！
但不知道为什么我就是不想让他们看我真正唱K的一面。
应该是因为他们全都已吓傻我了吧～
paiseh再让他们更加傻，哈哈！

好笑的部分来了～
真想不到我既然会在那儿见到我以前的情人哦！
哇，感觉这世界可真小咧～！
美君也被吓到吧，因为以前跟美君出街去TIMEAQUARE已见过他了，
现在又见到，哈哈！太可笑了！
出去很久之后，又回去唱K。
哈哈，我才想起荣耀还千我一首歌哦～
感谢他唱歌给我听，唱得还蛮不错哦 ^^
无辜脸的文龙不知为什么今天脸上的笑容少了一些...
之后才知道是因为莫件事哦...

唱K之后，我们还继续玩哦！
荣耀提出去玩保龄球，
那当然大家也赞同（因为大家没其它地方去了>.< ）
我没玩，但我有帮忙玩。
玩得还蛮刺激哦！因为文龙跟荣耀有得FIGHT
荣耀渐渐的开始有压力，我也怕怕咧...
其实荣耀就是WINNER，而不是文龙。恭喜荣耀！
因为我帮文龙玩嘛～所以不公平～
若只文龙一个人玩的话，我想他成绩没那么理想。
但最重要是...大家开心嘛～！
这时候国权也来了！开心见到他哦！

玩完之后，文龙要回家了～
我送他到KTM站...
路途中，文龙也问了我一个很“冷”的问题。
我真的不知道为什么很多人非常喜欢问我这个问题哦！
我知道也许他们觉得我那么久没男朋友，就不像“亚萱”了，
因为我身边很多“糖果” 随时要吃就可以吃。
但是... 不一定每一个“糖果”我都喜欢嘛～
当然要选我喜欢的，才会没蛀牙哦。
要不然后悔都来不及了～嘻嘻...

送了文龙到KTM站之后，路上遇见了他们，而且加了“一个人”哦～
说到“一个人”那件事，我都乱了！懒得理那么多了～
我们去找佩雯学姐，因为她在那儿做工。
不久之后，我们去KFC吃东西。
哈哈，这时候38又变态的美君做了一件超笨的事哦！
天啊，我也不知道该怎么说好咧。
总而言之，美君一开始就不应该问我同样的问题，就想文龙问的一样。
明知道我答案了，却还要问...天啊！！！
害到我一直笑个不停。算了，我不想提太多...
也许对其他人这话题很“新鲜”，但对我来说已经“淡”了～

吃完后，我们去拍照哦！
好高兴，我有机会拿相机了！
次次都别人拿着，我并没任何机会。
这次若我不好好把握机会的话，算我笨！哈哈！
国权脸上也少了笑容，我很想跟他好好聊一下，
但没机会...我想我应该找个好时间，再好好得跟他聊！

haiz... 玩了一整天，大家开始累了。
5点左右，我们各自回各家。
我，亿佩和国权做KTM回～
上火车之前，国权SEND了一封SMS要我们小心。
上火车一端时间后，国权又SEND多一封SMS给我...
haiz...真不知道该怎么说好...希望国权会...就这样吧！

哇，好累哦！加上我不够睡，又出了一整天街。
天啊，我要多多休息了～

erm...知道为什么我会写我这次的blog是"一首简单的歌“吗？
因为这首歌配合我今天的心情
就是

这一首简单的歌,
并没有什么独特
好像我...(一个简单的日子）
那么的平凡却又深刻...

突然累了...

2006-01-31T13:31:00.000+08:00

我突然开始觉得累了～
太累...太累...好想休息...

这星期我在学校实在太忙了！
才发觉到我这星期在班上的时间根本不到两小时！
一天最少都有6小时上课，
但我既然一整个星期才上了两个小时的课！
天啊，看来我不必做准备SPM考试了～

老师不停得找我帮他们的忙
帮老师是对的
但我没可能同一个时间帮那么多老师的忙呀～
haiz...

几乎没一天我七点才回到家
一回到家，冲凉后，直接睡觉了
根本没时间温习功课甚至做功课！

起身后准备上课
但我去学校并不是上课
而是继续帮老师做事...
就这样，做到下午为止之后回家去...

现在已是新年，大家开开心心。
但我呢？既然新年前一天在学校过夜
为什么过夜？做事做到太夜了，再加上我有课程上
只好在学校过夜哦～

相信大家现在都在过着充满快乐的新年
虽然我也是但我并不能到出走
因为还有很多事还没做好
所以只能留在家
一有空，就温习功课。
我好想做功课，
但我不知道有什么功课，
因为不在班的时间太长了
我与学业的距离实在太遥远了
看来需要很长的时间才能追上吧！
亚萱加油！（我对自己说的话）

希望开学以后，我并没那么忙了
但我现在最害怕是开学之后的田径比赛哦！
好紧张！希望一切顺利吧！

以下是我在学校担任的职位...
Pengerusi Forum Remaja
Pengerusi Keceriaan Makmal Bahasa
Naib Pengerusi Persatuan B.M
Setiausaha Olahraga
Ketua tingkatan 5
Ketua P.N Lembaga Ketua Tingkatan

其它小职位我忘了～paiseh >.<

好吧，我要好好加油了！
gambatte!

shool rulez yuck!

2006-01-22T13:38:00.000+08:00

LOL! can't believe that i really using back my blogspot! wakaka^^

erm...this is the blog that i wrote on 20th January 2006 at my msn space, so i just copy and paste it here~ neh, u know.."updating" blog...>.<

20th January 2006
this morning as usual go to school...
i'm late for my class cause had a small meeting with teachers~
and yup >.<
busy with alot alot alot of my activities~
i afraid i can't finish my work be4 on coming Monday...
haiz...blur now!

today, En.Hussaini came to our class to relief En.Saberi
my sit is just opposite of teacher's table
so i had a "public speaking" with him, En.Huisaini
he asked me alot about our class
he also mention about class "harmony" that our pengetua wanted...
so i just said: "i will arrange it later but won't have so much different anyways cause most of my class student are chinese." i smile. he said: "ok, but u should becareful cause in anything miss malyati or pn.hew will come to have a look for u guys."....
guess what???!!!
*ppooofff* miss malyati is here!
omg!!!

swt...
yup,i been scolded by her because our class notice board and class "harmony" problems...
and she asked me why that there's still 'malay sit with malay' and 'indian sit with indian'...
haiz...hard for me to asnwer...
so she wanted me to arrange their sits...
so, here start the problem~

1st, i just arranged some of their sit...
but Sook Xin said it's unfair for other ppl~
she suggested to change overall sits melalui undian...
so...i done it...
and of course all of them dislike their new sit...
i saw some of them starting "crap" and turning to moody mode...
i know it's hard for u guys to eccept it...even me too...

during recces, i went to teacher office find our class teacher to discuss with she
she told me go back to class 1st and see what they complained about...
and...worst now!!!
now we all changed our sit~again! swt...
they all starting complaining about their sit...
while i just stand beside teacher and give some suggestion

suddenly, i saw Ga Foong start take her tissue out from her pocket
while others were in moody mode/angry...
i tried my best to arrange their sit to the sit they wanted
but...i can't help all of them...

later, Lai Kuan start cry too...
when i saw she crying, i feel sorry to everybody
because of this stupid school rulez cause they tears out
haiz...my heart pain...
i don't wish they unhappy...don't wish they cry...
my heart starting pain deeply...last, my tears out too...
i cry not because of the arrangement,
it is because of them...my classmates
they all are my frens, i just can't stand to see they in unhappy mode~
even i dislike my sit anyways...
but what can i do? i'm class monitor ler...

i donno what else i can do...
so i decided to go out of class went to computer room to finish my works
so i was not in class half day of school time...

however, hope that there won't be so much homework lol
also hope that next monday all gonna be fine...

very miss my form 4 class which also same like now, same classmates....
just that maybe we all already in form 5, everything are changing...
just hate school rules! make everything changes too much lol!

I'm Back!!!

2006-01-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

hey guys! i'm back!

actually i thought i won't be back to blogspot anymore since i already hav msn space blog~ but... RONG YAO!!! he make me wanna start use again blogspot~!

donno who is rong yao? nevermind, i already upload his pic! wakaka! ok the right one is rong yao, also known as my angel while the left one is zhuang liang~ he is demon! keke...>.<

however, glad to be back! hope there's alot more ppl will use blogspot...specially for my xueji's frens~ ^^

byebye guys! have a nice day!

Minggu Bahasa

2005-04-24T14:40:00.000+08:00

monday 18/4/2005
ok~ today i got take part in alot competition (miggu bahasa BM)~ damn nervous and kinda tired~ XD and guess what? all going well~! but the results of the competiton is not out yet... and feel that i won't win in these competiton~ cause i'm bad! very bad! haiz... and today Pei Lin didn't came to school cause she sick~ how i know? hehe, because around 2:30a.m she sms me~ she said she can't sleep so wanna sms with me~ around 4a.m. then we end and sleep~ BUT 5:30a.m. i woke up liao! cause wanna get ready for school...so that mean i'm not enough sleep lor.....

tuesday 19/4/2005
again competition! (minggu bahasa BI) and today feel much better! cause i able sleep early and Pei Lin came to school! hahaha~ and the most happy is i won! i hav won for the english quiz 2th place and Spelling Bee 4th place~ actually i kinda disappointed with the Spelling Bee competiton~ cause actually i still can hold untill last round for 1st, 2nd, 3rd place BUT i dumb @_@ i had repeat the same spelling that Sharon did! thatz mean i'm OUT of the competition!!! argg!!! sorry for all my frens cause i make u all so disappointed specially to my classmates and other... but however, thank to all still support me stills the end of the competition~ and yup! ki leng came to my house to day and we had crap alot! sweet memories! hard to explain~

wednesday 20/4/2005
back to normal~ studies lor~ and teacher told us that Mid Year examination coming soon... wanna we all study harder if not some of us maybe gonna chamge class to the "hingest" class~ u get what i mean? hope so..... and yup~ today me, Boon Xin ans Soo Teng had went to Mc'Donald for Lunch after school~ and we crap alot alot~ and i very enjoyed my time with them~ happy~

thursday 21/4/2005
no school today~1st i was planning sleep all the day but suddenly Sue jun called me ask me to go out~ i wish i know how to reject ppl oneday because HARD FOR ME TO REJECT PPL! afraid taht ppl with hate me... haiz~ went to mutiara shopping complex and guess what??? Poh Suan is here too! *hugs* not only her anywayz, Ee Man and man Siew also here! they going to kotaraya and they ask me to join them...but...I"M LAZY!!! but they don let me go home and pull me untill the bus stop... and...and... i stopped a taxi and went back home! wahahaha! sorry guyz~ next time lar~ i really tired and lazy~ gomenasai~

friday 22/4/2005
OMG~ Poh suan and Man Siew balas dendam at me back today cause didn't join them yesterday~ ask me to treat them for lunch~ eto....ok lor~ oh ya, today i pissed off on boon Xin and Soo Teng cause i feel that they changed~ ok, even i nkow i was kinda "black face" but they worst! they become vain and kinda upset cause i heard taht alot ppl dislike Boon xin liao~ haiz... i also donno what should i do to make her change back to normal~ however, up to her to decide~ later after school i went back home and do my homeworks~ too many homeworks liao! and ingore all call and sms~ even Soo Teng sms and Boon Xin call~ lazy to care about them liao~ nowday, i donno whether i had change or my frens had changed lor...however, just wanna to say that " nature and mature~ don be so childish~ "

Saturday 23/4/2004
yup! today Persatuan Lembaga Ketua Tingkatan had a rombongan to FRIM and i love FRIM~ i know i had came to FRIM last year, but i still wanna go there more than once~ cause FRIM is a very interesting place! i love peace! with no war~ *crapping* haha~ jsut what i can say is tahnks to all my frens cause make so many silly jokes and i love u all! wahaha~ *hugs*

Sunday 24/4/2005
GOMENASAI STUDENT REPORTERS cause i skip today activities! i really very tired and $$ also one of the problem lor~ sorry!!! i wish u could go but i really really very tired today! today activities started from 9a.m. and i woke up around 11a.m.~ tahtz mean i'm late~ sorry... hope u all don mind and remember tell me if there any special activities! and i know thatt if i didn't o for today activities that mean i also can't go for the May holiday camp...Omg, i really wish that i could go for the camp, but since today i didn't come...sorry...at least one of u helped me to register for the camp~ then i'm sure will thank you and feel happy!

ok lar~ gonna stop here cause it is long blogz liao and full of crap thingy~ *bleh* byebye! 886!

-END-

Worst!

2005-04-16T20:15:00.000+08:00

monday 11/04/2005
raining so didn't go anywhere just do my homeworks at home and school...

tuesday 12/04/2005
shock! bad+good news! early in the morning when i was on my way go to pejabat guru wanna take the exam papers suddenly Pn.Shakirah poooffff out~ she told me that this thursday gonna be the forum remaja competiton and i was like huh? nani? *swt* the worst is we didn't prepare any thing for the competition~ rush find my group and hurry meeting! after around 3p.m. then i reached home~ but we still didn't done anything yet...i was like OMG again...and i do all the perbentangan all by myself.....damn tired anywayz.....and my fingers was like burn up liao cause non stop writing...

wednesday 13/04/2005
9p.m. meeting started! luckily they like my perbentengan and we agree to use it~ so bahagikan part for everyone and start practise......1st problem is.......we don hav pengalaman with this kind of competition...*swt* i'm as the pengerusi also hav no idea for it~ just tell them to hafal and speak loud tomorrow during the perbincangan. back home around 3p.m. again~ darm tired and skip my for basketball prac~ today all of us gonna sleep late cause need to hafal it~ haiz........

thursday 14/04/2005
today is the day! and guess what? i'm late!!!!!!!!!!! but actually not only me the one who's late today....boon xin same too~ cause all late sleep yesterday~ go we went to S.M.K Bukit Jalil by taxi and reached there around 8:25a.m. and we all feel very veyr nervous~ i didn't feel very nervous cause as a group leader should me relax for contoh teladan~ XD~ around 10 something gonna be our turn and all going nutz! i'm just stay cool and start ther perbincangan~ but i kinda disapponted with boon xin cause she didn't remember anything at the last minutes! i think cause she too afraid gua...during the competition she holding the paper and read it all the way... while soo Teng looks good but too "keras macam kayu" talk also very kaku and her hand can't move! she sepatut move here move there but SHE DON!...but however i puas hati with her presentation lor cause better than boon xin... and Nor Hidayah acting too over~ over untill she forgrt her lines~ and i dislike this type cause be4 the comeptiton start i told her practise don just sit there talk crazp BUT she buat tak tahu and i fel up liao and don care about her~ see now! gagap liao...haiz... while about me, teacher said that i'm good but talk too fast~ but para hakim still undersatand what i'm saying lar~ just teacher said taht i'm too attractive cause make those hadirin non stop look at me when i'm talking and some boys look at me like" tak kelip mata" ~ eto.......donno teacher got lie or not lar~ but however i feel not puas hati cause i should talk slower lor~ haiz..... around 11 we decided to back home liao but we end up at Sogo food court for lunch time~ weeyy, finally can eat liao....haiz....lunch ic very important for me ^^

friday 15/04.2005
today school having Hari Keusahawanan and i run away from my duty cause feel very tired just wanna to sleep more~ and i get alot bad news from class~ when i'm not at school, class very bad, noisy and also got ppl ponteng~ my asst. can't control them lor...haiz...and they also told me that they prefer me to sclod them to "shut up"~ *swt* OMG~ seems like i can rest untill May cause i force to took part for all school activities~ one day i need to go for 3 kind of competiton~ different types~ haiz.......taht mean alot of works taht i need to do after i reach home lor... haiz... no mood for Hari Usahawanan liao so around 2p.m. went back home and start practise my competition things~

saturday 16/04/2005
today i almost forgot about the moral kerja amal at rumah anak yatim piatu ler~ late around half an hour to gether with my classmates~ feel so to them...gomenasai...actually i feel like not going today cause feel damn tired and alot of works haven done yet...but promise is promise~ so join lor~ we went to Ampang area~ and we hav alot of fun~ lazy to write out cause wanna sleep liao so what can i say is i enjoy my time~ ZzZzZz......sorry for lame blogz....

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upset week

2005-04-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

woot! what a busy week~! finally today i can rest liao! wahahahahha~ this week our school having minggu anti dadah and there was alot activities need to do specially for form 4 *swt* whole week i was not in class busy preparing for my activities and also my persembahan~ BUT fianlly on thursday and friday i can spend my time in class with my classmates! miss them so much!

thursday 7/4/2005
today finally i can spend my time in class~ *happy* altho there was a competition sempena minggu anti dadah~ we need to do a penanda buku...*swt* so lazy but however this is pertandingan yang wajib for all form 4 anywayz~ haiz...... i took all my stuff and sit at the coner of the class cause wanna "curi tulang" BUT suddenly Poh Suan came and sit beside me~ she said that she in bad mood, so we hav a lil bit talk lor~ but later *ppooooffff* Man Siew and Ai Lin are here~ both of them very busybody *swt* Poh Suan "pause" our conversation cause she don wan too many ppl know about her problem so ~~~ the end 4 of us talk craps~ whahahaha~ sambil playing sambil do our penanda buku~!

after finish do the penanda buku, finally Man Siew and Ai Lin go "away" do their own stuff~ i asked Poh Suan to continue about her topic but she don wan~ she said wanna hear more about my problem~ *swt* she said wanna know more about me and Pei Lin wor~ recently i talk alot with Pei Lin , and i heard that Poh Suan was kinda not happy with it~ cause i didn't talk to her lately~ actually not that i don wan talk to her, is because she always moody so i think is better just leave her alone lor~ how on earth i'll know she actually wanna talk with me?! alamak, next time i hope someone will tell me when is the that Poh suan wanna talk with me lar~ i so blur about it....i told her :" there was nothing specially happens between me and Pei Lin cause we just talk crapz all the time, wahahha"~ SUDDENLY she stand up and go~ X__________x nani??? what happen? did i say anything wrong? she sat at other coner of the class and look out of the windows and ingore me....and i was like....what she doing now? i asked her:" erm...poh suan, did i do anything wrong? sorry......." and she said:" nothing, just leave me alone" eto........seems she wanna be alone so I GO but but but...... again she stand up and shout " Chai Ya Xuan" so i trun back and said "yes?" that time her nadi/voice was like angry and she said:" suan liao~ nothing! u just go..." i was SO BLUR THAT TIME CAUSE DONNO WHAT HAD HAPPENED NEH~ like 100000 times i ask her whatz wrong and she just ingore me ler~ i starting upset and feel like wanna cry... so went to Man Siew place and cry on her shoulder... ... i told Man Siew to pretending that i'm sleeping so nobody know that i'm crying~ and thank alot to Man Siew cause i feel much better after hav a lil talk with her~ *hugs* and sorry cause make ur shirt wet cause of my tears~ *shame* later, Po Suan came and ask me:" what happen to u?" and i said:" nothing, just sleepy" i donwan let her know that i cry cause afraid that she will think too much again~ so later i went out to continue my activies at school hall and byebye to my classmates~

Friday 8/4/2005
happy day cause Pn.LiLi said that i can stay in the class all day and don need go for the activies liao~ weeyyy!!!! wahahhaha~ step into the class will big smile and sit and my place brushing up my homeworks and studies~ "Ya Xuan" Poh suan called me~ she crapz something weird with her mouth full of food * curi makan in the class" however, i happy cause seems like today she in good mood~! later teacher is here, like normal we do the latihan that teacher gave lor... eto... suddenly and again Poh Suan came here~ she said she don have text book and donno how to do the latihan so wanna me to teach her~ AND HERE!!!! the "jokes" begin!!!

Poh Suan: "ok, number 1, resit dihantar oleh?"
Me: *shaking my pencil and excidently tercucuk poh suan's finger*
Poh Suan: " ahh!!! hurt!!! *shouting cause hurt and in same time laughing*
Me: " woot! sorry!!! teacher is wastching don shout so lout"
Teacher Pn. Norlaila: " *coming to our way and cubit Poh Saun* "Poh suan, kenapa ketawa kuat-kuat ni? dah siap kerja sekolah?"
Poh Suan: " cikgu tangan saya sakit lar~"
Teaxher Pn Laila: " kalau sakit kenapa ketawa *continue cubit poh suan*
Me: " cikgu saya tercucuk jari dia tadi sebad tu dia jerit..."
Teacher Pn. Norlaila: " Poh suan balik tempat duduk awak jangan kacau monitor(me) awak lagi"
Poh Suan: " saya tak bawa buku teks sebab itu cari dia tanya tentang latihan ini"
Teacher Pn. Norlaila: " eh! sebelah awak Priscilla kan ada bawa buku teks, pergi kongsi dengan dia"
Poh Suan: " tak nak lar, cikgu..."
Teacher Pn. Norlaila: " kenapa pula? pirscilla ada penyakit ke?"
Priscilla: " *excited voice* Bukanlah cikgu, Poh Suan suka Ya Xuan(me) sebab itu dia duduk kat sana lar~"
WHOLE CLASS ARE LAUGHING~
Teacher Pn. Norlaila: " oh...Poh Suan suka monitor ke~ esh! takut saya... *teacher thought poh suan and me is yuri*
Me: " *quite and prentending nothing happen*
Poh Suan: " *look and me and look at teacher then start laughing* cikgu!!! Priscilla tipu!!!"
Priscilla: " eleh, cikgu Po Suan yang tipu sebab dia setiap kali mesti cari Ya Xuan punya"
Me: *still prentending*
Teacher Pn. Norlaila: " ok lar, semua sambung but kerja latihan. Jangan main-main dah~"

>.
Soo Teng: " so scare!!"
Me: " same here!"
Teacher Pn.Sakila:" be4 i give back these papers, i wanna thosw who gets 20% and below to think back whether r u really wanna take account subject specially for those who's always busy with their activities and always not in the class"
Poh Suan:" Ya Xuan, teacher sound like talking about me...so scare..."
Me: " neh~ she is talking about me cause i'm the one who's alwways not in the class..."
Teacher:*starting giving back exam papers* "Nitha, Soo Teng..next is class monitor(me).....etc...Poh Suan, Ai Lin, Man Siew"
Me:* talk to myself* " OMG! i'm the 3rd person who gets the paper!!! i failed"
but after i got it! hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! good marks!!!
Soo Teng:" wow! both of us pass!"
Me:" yup! ahhaha~ Poh Suan, how about u?"
Poh suan: " i just can't believe that i pass!!"
Me: " yo! congrat!"
Teacher: " congrat to top 9 students pass this exam"
Soo Teng: " Ya Xuan, i think u t the highest score"
Me: " no lar, sure other ppl are better than me" *smiling*
Soo Teng: " maybe gua~ cause almost all subject u get the highest so might same for account"
Me: " neh~ don talk about this topic liao later let's o to canteen and eat cause i didn't eat since yesterday night"
Soo Teng: " ok~"

"ring.................." school end~ i was happy with my resluts and went to canteen hav my lunch! very good mood to eat now! hahaha~

Saturday 9/2/2005
woke up early in the morning and preparing going to school for activities~ but guess what? after i reach school they said the activities canceled~ *swt*me, Soo Teng and A-Soh went to volleyball court and sit a side look them playing/practising volleyball~ eto?! Po Suan and Ee Man are there too~ oh ya, they are wakil sekolah for volleyball~ hahaha~ *lost ingatan* around 10a.m. i starting boring and wanna go back home liao but Soo Teng andf A-Soh must wait untill 12 o' clock for their parents~ so taht mean i can't go anywhere~ later A-Soh said she very hungry and wanna eat something~ so Me, soo Teng and A-Soh went to 7-eleven to hav so meal~ *ppooof* Poh Suan and Ee Man also here! so 5 of us crapz together~ however and again!!!! poh suan is bad mood~ *swt* haiz....... around 10 something we all starting boring again and Poh suan said that she going home~ i also wanna go home cause going to petaling street to buy some stuff~ later Soo Teng and Ee Man said wanna follow too~ but A-soh did not~ so we wait untill A-Soh paretns come then we go to petaling street~

1p.m we already at petaling street~ and i starting hungry so go for luuch at "cao ru" restaurant~ OMG! tik tak tik tak tik tak already 5 p.m.! wow~ hours we are crapping in the restaurant~ *wahahha* seems like we really enjoyed the "crapz" alot of topic anywayz~ Ee Man is funny and cute~ happy to hav a talk with her~around 7 : 15 pm. i reach home~ feel so tired!!!! so after took my bath blow dry my hair ~ 8:30 p.m. ZzZzZz..........

sunday 10/4/2005 (today!)
seems like i crapz alot in my own blogz~ hahhaa~ alot homeworks haven finish yet so i think i should oof liao~ gonna hav my lunch soon~ for u guys information~ i seldom hav breakfast , no dinner foe me cause i sleep early everyday so......only lunch meal for me! taht why LUNCH IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR ME! hhahaha~ ok~ gtg liao~ byebye!

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WoOT!!!

2005-04-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

What would you look like as an Anime Charecter? (MODIFIED!) by tobyspit
Name:
Gender, Age, and Species:	Male; 420 ; Halfbreed (Elven/Demon)
Walk of Life:	Dragoon
Hair Style:	Short, spikey, and bleached
Eyes Type and Color:	Sad, Sky Blue
Clothing:	Black T-Shirt,Black Dress Pants,Black Dress Shoes
Weapons and Accessories:	Nunchucks, Cowboy hat
Memerable Quote:	"I've only been Bi with one giant centipede."

Quiz created with MemeGen!

eto... ... the thingy up here i found it at kitsune's blog~ kinda funny anywayz~ *evil laugh* however, seems like i didn't update like ages liao... today is the day for me to update it! nya~~ kinda lazy ler~ haiz...

today i went out to sungai wang and TS! with asakura/juin/hades/elf...(too many names), kaede and yagami~ hav a very nice day! cause kaede acting lil bit funny today while juin/hades/asakura/elf non stop crapping alone and look very funny~ yagami didn't talk too much~ i think is because she not really close with us gua~ but it doesn't matter cause soon will going fine~ ^^the most funny part is when be4 we went off from arcade, yamagi said :" iris, u know what? ur eyes very pretty" OMG~~~ wahaha~* evil laugh* actually it was the contact lenses!!! i lazy to wear my spec so i wear colour lenses today~ haha~ but however, thanks alot gal! and today keade suddenly talk about my bf~ *swt* actually i feel taht i don gave bf tho... cause i ddin't really care about him very much~ i know I AM BAD ~ actually he also lil bit wrong lor~ cause he donno how to jaga me for not being so "berlampauan" on this relationship~ cause he just only said " up to u whatever you wanna to do, i'll support u all the way~" nani?! tahtz mean if i love other guy u also will support me ka? duih...X________x and i can feel taht no any longer more...this relationship will OFF

oh ya! be4 i forgot something....FINALLY i gets student reporters(xue ji) pics!!! so funny, cool and sweet! it was the pics thathad took down during the march camp which is starting on my b'day untill 15th march~ weey~~~ *happy* wahahaha~ really miss them alot! and i kidna can't wait for the next gathering/activities! 2 more week then can meet them again! *hugs all*

eto......erm......should i go out tomorrow? cause my fren wanna meet me at sungai wang...actually is not that i don wan to meet him just that LAZY GO TO THE SAME PLACE AGAIN~ *swt* and i told him taht change venue but he was...was...lame... cause donno other place kecuali sungai wang and pandan indah~ even Chow Kit he also donno!!! OMG! what kind of guy is this... haiz... so kinda give up on him liao~ but..but... after 10 minutes later he said he already at my house area... cause just now he thought taht i mad on him so he trying to learn and remember more places~ eto.... actually don need to do like that man... bleh~ lazy to care liao... nowdays, i feel that all those capture guy going too crazy liao~ and i dislike it~! can't they be more normal/nature? *swt* ok, don wan talk about this topic liao...*off topic*

lastly, *hugs pc* although i always on9 but didn't really do anything taht i wan~ i on9 just because doing my school stuff~ sorry computer because u looks so "lame" because didn't update u long time liao~ i donno when i will be very free... but i promise will update u a.s.a.p, k?! *hugs* byebye! wanna sleep~ ZzZz...

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time table!

2005-03-17T10:31:00.000+08:00

ok, just now Song Neng xue ge send me his holidays punya time table and i think taht his so kesian because got alot activities to do~ so i sedar actually my activities is not so "geng" than his wan lor~ feel pity for him...

-Song Neng xue ge time table-
三月十一日至十二日:去国林的家住..顺便去那边玩..
三月十三日:仍住在国林家..但当天要去培训课程..哎...
三月十三日至十四日:在培训课程.....
三月十五日:那天还是培训课程但我得赶去首都剧场进行戏剧彩排...
三月十六日:演出...(加油!!!!)
三月十七日:由于会很累我们会住那边一天....
三月十八日:排戏.......(给六月的校际赛..四月就是校内选拔赛..)

-My time table-
12 March : 收拾行李准备去营…(推了所有朋友的约会)
13th March until 15th March : 七点起身准备去集合(学记) 可怜在生日也要出席活动…
15th March : 今天回家咯!但晚上还有篮球练习~
16th March : 去学校上假期特加班(辛苦哦!)朋友来我家温习功课
17th March : 还是一样的去学校上特加班…而晚上去练篮球…
18th March : 出门参与校友的活动(应该是去唱K)
19th March : 出门补充计划书的资料然后去叔叔家吃饭.
20th March : 学记开会!!! 压力大哦!!! 回家读书,明天考试!

so, seems like mine better, right?! haiz...so i'm here to sokong Song Neng xue ge and gambatte lor! and as all xue ge and xue jie wished, we(juniors) will gambatte to be the best!

p/s: can u guys see those chinese words?! or its don look like chinese words? (blog problem)*think*

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Nice camp+sick

2005-03-15T20:30:00.000+08:00

ok~ today i just back from my student repoter camp that which started on 13 mach untill 15 march~ firstly i thought don wanna go for it because since taht day is my b'day so maybe hang out with my frens, but at last i still go for the camp~ actually it is very nice camp anywayz~ have so much fun there~

13th march 2005
around 12 noon we berkumpul at S.J.K(C) San Yuk, rawang which is our camp will be held there~ frist we had our lunch and then we start our first activity~ ---GOTONG ROYONG KAWASAN PERUMAHAN PENDUDUK SECARA SUKARELA--- (sorry, my english is poor so donno how to say it in english. gomen~) frist it was hard to start it because all the villager don really know our point...i think they kinda afraid we do anything bad gua~ but slowly finally we made it! we success gotong-royong around 8 houses~ that it's a good results! around 6p.m. we all take our bath then had our dinner~ omg, taht time i suddenly say out taht wanna have a piece of cake and my fren heard it~ and she said :" u can have it when is ur birthday." woot~ Yew Li suddenly said to my fren :" actually, today it is ya xuan b'day" ~~~ my fren was like shock! and tiba-tiba sing a b'day song to me then others sing along too(around 40+ ppl)~ kinda happy~ hahaha! later our senior told us(junior) taht tomorrow morning we need to mempersembahkan pertunjukkan to villagers~ taht time we all kinda blur cause that time is already 8p.m and we didn't ready for anything~ so after finish our dinner we slip up into small group and start thinking and practise our pertunjukkan~ my group(12 ppl) are present "chairs dance" taht which we use chair to dance~ wow, kinda funny~ because all the steps we think for ourself wihout any "petunjuk" so around 11:40p.m. we finally berjaya do it! and senior like our show very much! around 11:55p.m. we had a small meeting again~ that time we all very very tired liao and sleepy too~ but suddenly senior said taht they hav ready a small hadiah for birthday gal taht is for me?! OMG, so blur that time~ hahha! then all ppl sang b'day song to me~ wow, around 70 ppl taht time including seniors~ *happy* but ACTUALLY!!! there is another person taht is same birthday with me~ Zhu Kang also 13 march b'day wor~ but hor all seniors very bad wan... because they lied taht they didn't ready anything for Zhu Kang because they thought is only my b'day taht time~ then after few minutes finish sing songs for me, then they bring out hadiah for him~ my fren said taht when all ppl was singing b'day song to me, he(Zhu Kang) was kinda "balck face" but after his turn, his face turn to "red face" liao~ hahha~ then we had our cake together~ fun! after finish eat-eat, we continue practise our dance and we had to ready one more show for opening~so taht mean around 2 A.M!!! then we sleep~

14th march 2005
*swt* now is only 6 o'clock in the morning we already woke up cause need to get ready for our big show today~ around 7a.m. we had our breakfast and later we continue practise our dance~ the whole plan for mempersembahkan for villagers, there are 8 shows together~ so sharp 9a.m. the first show is started~ and bla..bla..bla...is out then "chairs dance" turn~ and guess what? alot penonton enjoyed it! wahhahaha~ good !!! after finish the whole activity, we celebrate our kejayaan~ but, taht time i feel not very well~ my stomach got something wrong... and its very very very pain!!! i can't tahan then i baring to then bangku canteen~ senior was kinda terkejut because they thought taht i pengsan already~ *swt* so they take me to their rest room~ Guo Ling senior was very sweet and nice~ *touched* slowly one per one senior around me and take care of me~ so nice lar they all... and some is crapping with me~ *bleh* they(senior) are very cute and funny lar~ taht time i cried out cause too pain(stupid stomach) but in same time i smile because because they make some silly jokes~ later around 1:30 p.m. hav another activity taht is TEMUBUAL WITH VILLAGERS.... i didn't join the activity because i not allow to join~ they said taht i still not very well so still need to rest more~ they told me to back to my room, take a nice bath and sleep~ *swt* ok, since i allowed to sleep so sleep lor~ around 3p.m. i woke up~ and noticed taht they all already back from the activity~ and then there is another fun activity that is "U FIND PPL, PPL FIND U" this is very fun anywayz~ each group hav 3 misteries things and need to find the owner of the thing~ and the most funny about the game is Song Neng senior was too too too crazy lol! first we need to catch him and we ran for the whole school and and and!!! i almost been bite by a crzy dog! OMG!!! scary!!! after we made it, he wanted us to pretend/act like a frog~ sit and "crok" like a frog~ woot! very funny and many ppl look at us~ after finish, he ran away again~ we decided to go on with other clues first(since he ran away liao)~ OK! done~ after taht we had our dinner and again another activity~ this time is drama show~ each group have a title of a song and need to think and act in MV stlye with the song along~ actually taht time i was kinda feedup with my group because the "watak utama lelaki" didn't actually really act like a "watk lelaki" i was hardly do my best in that, but still not very good~ haiz......but i dicalonkan sebagai "watak utama perempuan yang tebaik" lor~ i didn't win, but i happy because still got ppl "yan siong" my 'act-act' lor... after that we back to our room and sleep~ and i was blur-blur that time, cause the winner of the "watak utama perempuan yang terbaik" came to me and said that i'm the one should get the name~ neh, it just small case wan, nothing big deal, don need to do like that~ thy already choose u as the winner, so u should happy to have it~ but however, still thank you her for so "kan de qi" me~ later me crap a bit then sleep liao~

15th march 2005
ok, today is the last day liao~ 6:30 a.m we and gather at basketball court and warming up~ later again had small meeting and talk about the whole camp thing... later finish liao then all ppl back own home~

around 2 o'clock p.m. i reach home so tired so hav a nap~ around 6 woke up and on9 untill now~ and now i gtg liao~ wanna hav dinner then sleep again~ *really tired* ok lar, byebye my dear computer!! *hugs*

p/s: finally i update my blog~ ^^"

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Yellow Fight! Yellow Go! Go! Go!

2005-03-05T10:12:00.000+08:00

ok~ finally the extreme day end liao~ yesterday i was really nervours and tired~ win? lose? it just a game~ so i din care too much~ but i was kinda sad because Poh Suan din talk to me for along time liao~ actually i donno what happened to her, but i really miss the days that when we all were very happy play together... she look like pissed off...when i ask my frens what happened to her, they all just said that she nothing and tell me don think too much~ i really wanna to know that itzit i have done something wrongly that make her so angry with me or unhappy?? even yesterday when competitino she didn't even give me any sokongan moral pun..OMG~ feel so sad....normally in class she always/everytime sure she will talk to me, but now she don ever care about it~ now i kinda feel sad... i wish everything back to normal...Kim Leng said that she kinda jealous when i talk alot with Pei Lin wor~ but actually me and Pei Lin just normal frens even i know that she is tomboy but it doens't mean taht i will like her~ come on, i'm not taht kind of ppl lar~ i just like to meet new frens and hang my time with frens only mar~ Poh Suan please talk to me back~ if u really mad at me, i'm here to say sorry... because of u, i have made Soo Teng and Boon Xin kinda pissed on me liao, i spend my time on you more than them...

haiz......i'm crapping in my own blog... on monday i have another competition~ so need to gambatte to face it again...this week in class i was kinda sad because poh suan didn't talk to me~ i donno what happened to her... and exam coming soon~ i donno whether i can face the exam or not because long time didn't touch those books liao..haiz......

neh, me gtg liao~ wanna go to practise my sports~ if not on monday i will blur blur wan~ *swt* byebye computer~ and to all my frens~ i miss u guys so much! wish i can meet u guys now! haha~ mision impossible~.....

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Activitiesssss....

2005-02-25T15:40:00.000+08:00

woot! i'm going crazy now! alot activities!!! let's see....

moday--> special class *give tuition to my classmate that who's need helps~*
tuesday--> after school got extra class at school and around 7p.m. i have my basketball practise *woot! at night ar!!!*
wednesday--> only got extra class.
thursday--> back home late because hang at school perpustakaan and same again around 7p.m. i have my basketball practise untill 10p.m.
friday--> perjumpaan persatuan untill late evening
saturday-->interect club activity or hang out with frens if there got activty lor...
sunday--> student reporter activity...whole day non stop!!!

be4 these actvities *pop* up i usually sleep at 8p.m. but now......hard lor! specially when i back from my basketball practise, reach home around 10:30p.m. then take a bath after THAt then i can do my homeworks!!! *tired* and for my student reporter, i have alot studyworks that haven done yet because no time to do it. haiz........or i should say even taht I HAVE NO TIME TO DO MY HOMEWORKS AR! and i can't watch my tv show liao~ at school ppl asked me have i watch bla bla show and my answer is "NO" because no time to watch. and now teacher tarik me to join a "Forum Remaja" and i will wakil sekoah to VS. with other schools~ and i also take part alot in my school sports day...i was wondering itzit i can do it all in? can i run for 1500meter and jogging for 3000meter? aiyo......

Yesterday when the basketball practise Poh Suan looked kinda "black face" because there was some ppl that she hate. i try to cheer her up but she still taht kind of face then later when i kinda give up and i didn't talk to her...then she smile...it is forced smile....*swt* but however i think forced smile is better than "black face"~ haiz...i donno what should i do liao, too tired to think about it... and today at school i was so busy running here and there and without notice i also almost missed my exam...and guess what?! i really didn't talk to Poh Suan today without any reason. she was kinda upset i wanna help her but she buat tak tahu so i gave up and continue my works while i was kinda busy doing something~but when school finish she suddenly pops up infront me and say byebye...nani? so weird lar her.... neh~ i think she just playing her moody mood again~ *swt* now i feel kinda sleepy but i can't sleep now because i have some really important works to do it is for the wakil sekolah wan...and tomorrow i have merentas desa...long run...haiz.....

neh, i donno what should i write liao... i think i just crapping for my whole blog...actually i like and enjoy these activities but i afraid that my frens will said that i din't care about them liao~ because this kind of situation had happened 2 years ago...kinda afraid to lost my frens again because keep doing my activities...however, start now i must do a timetable if not will be more kelam-kabut lor..ok lar, i gtg liao...wanna continue my works...byebye!

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Busy lar...

2005-02-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

OMG~ so tired and busy...and seems like my blog like ketinggalan zaman liao lor~ kesian... btw, i have changed to new layout but donno whether it nice or not...haiz.......

lately i'm just going fine but too busy liao~ i have alot alot alot activities to do~Last saturday (19.02.2005) was the only day taht i can rest~ but however, i been tarik by Poh Suan to buy some stuff at Kotaraya~ at 1st it just only me and her but i think more ppl more fun so i called Man Siew and Soo Teng come along too~ actually i know that Soo Teng kinda dislike when i stick with Poh suan too much...but...neh, i don't care about taht too much because it just because soo teng "makan cuka" only~ oh ya, guess what! when i was walking along the petaling streets, i met alot alot of my frens! including my student repoter senior!!! kaede was there too! she was on the way for tuition....hahaha~^.^ we had spend whole evening at Kotaraya and of course we have enjoyed! around 5 p.m. we balik rumah lor~ i was in the same bus with Poh Suan and Ee Man but i didn't sit with Poh suan because i know that Ee Man will angry because i've stole away her honey-Poh suan- for whole evening~ hahhaa~ however today activities just going fine~ i was so tired.... after i took my bath i when to sleep~ but suddenly around 7:40p.m. Man Siew has send a sms to me~ just normal sms but i feel weird why she send sms to me while we just met this evening~*swt* neh, continue sleep.....but..but....arh!!! around 11:30 there was another sms and it is from Poh Suan!! *swt* wondering why u guyz didn't sleep yet ar?! but her sms was kinda weird... because she seldom send this kind of sms to me...and...i donno what she means....*swtx1000times* ZzZzZz......

yesterday sunday (20.02.2005) I suppost attened a meeting for the student reporter but it has been cancel liao so for the whole day i just doing my homeworks at home~ later around 1p.m. charlie called and she told me that she was on the way to my house. woot! get ready server tea! hahaa~^o^ and my others frens was coming to my house too~ we crapped alot and specially kim leng has crap alot about see inn~ haiz...actually i also donno what had happened to their frenship liao~however, better don't masuk campur too much.... after taht we go bai nian at everybody's house~ i mean bai nian at my frens's house taht has come to my house yesterday....so...3p.m. start and 8p.m. end~ tired!!! same thing again after i took my bath i went to sleep~

and TODAY(21.02.2005) now feel really really tired i wish i could go to sleep now but i have alot of homeworks haven finish yet~ 4 sains eksperimen, Summer writing and Perdagangan nota haven done yet~ neh i think better start doing my homeworks if not i maybe gonna sleep late today~ ok lar, byebye computer! *muuuaaakkk* miss you take care!

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Update lor!!!

2005-01-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

*swt* seems like already ages and ages hence that i didn't update my blog liao~ if not megumi asking about blog thing, i think i already forgoten about this~ XD~ ok, how i should start my blog ler? MmMm..let me think from the school reopen day~ school going well and now i'm in Account class~ at frist i was in the Lukisan Kejuteraan sains class but i feel hate sains thing so i change to Account + Add Math~ then later, i feel like hate add math now change to normal account class untill today lor~! the most sad thing is i can't take art class because teacher said that i already change alot time and ever time i change i to lower class that means I AM A NO STANDARD STUDENT LOR~....so...*sob sob* no art class for me~alot of my fren said taht i wasting the chance to be in sains class, but what can i do ler...tak minat mar~ my cousin said taht i can study by myself for art subject but..but.. when i start thinking about project stuff, i think i unable to control/setltle it all~ since account already so bluring liao~ *swt* oh ya, i'm also a class monitor~ i donno why i been choosen but kinda not feeling to be a monitor lor~ all my classmates berpakat bully me wan~*on the undi class AJK day* but i like my class and also my classmates! all very nice, sweet, guai-guai, clever, talkactive and the most is they are cute+crazy!!! just ike me!!! wahahahhaha~

oh ya, RO carnival!!!!! was really fun! most is.................GOT ALOT OF LENG ZHAI LER!!!!! wahahha~*evil laugh* poringsssss everywhere! so cool! and also tired lol~ haiz....... after back home from the carnival i can't directly go to sleep!!! because i hav some homework haven finish yet lor~ haiz....kesian.....

latest wan for this week...i feel happy this week~ because i hav alot of fun with my classmates! they are cool and funny~ me non stop laughing all the time!!! but..but...yesterday me cried at school lor~ gomenasai to my classmates because so worry about me~ me so baka because i cried just because of my snoopy note book~ sorry guyz~ and..and..thank to Poh Suan because u go and search for my snoopy note whole school~ so touched~ but luckily today got a student came and find me to return back my book~ i donno who is the person was, but thank you~ if not i think i will be in bad mood again today~ today on waktu sejarah teacher told us to do a project in small group~ Boon Xin and Soo Teng was kinda upset because i was not in the same group with them lor...haiz..sebaliknya i same group with Poh suan and Man siew etc.etc.~ actually i don't really mind about the group thing~ as long we hav fun, finish our works then it's already enough~

ok...what i wanna to say already finish~ this coming saturday i need to start doing my reporter work liao~ haiz....computer, sorry sorry sorry so much~ me busy with my school stuff and also outdoor activities~ no time to teman u..gomenasai...hope u tak marah lor~ me now gtg liao~ wanna continue my homeworks if not i'll die tomorrow~ so...byebye~ *hugs*

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Lucky 7!

2005-01-02T20:16:00.000+08:00

today didn't go out to much because tomorrow is school day~ need to do alot of thing but i think almost done it all liao~ actually today A-Cool soppost not coming to my house liao since school gonna start tomorrow but he say for last time, so i think nothing problem with that lor~ so around 3p.m. he arrived then chit-chat in his car lor~ talk untill starting nothing to do so we decided go to see inn's house take alook at her~

4 o'clock, we'r see inn's house area and see inn was like blur face looking at me because she donno why i suddenly come to see her~*swt* see inn, as a frenz there is no reason to say about it, just normal~ we didn't hang too much at see inn place because she kinda busy lor so later we back to my house and continue chat with A-Cool~ 1st, A-Cool was kinda worry about me because i always moody and easy fall sick but however i promise him to be more careful liao...and yes! we did hav a great time today even i didn't talk to much~ 7!!! 7 really meaningful for me! why? *zip mouth* secret~ wahahhaa~ so around 5p.m. A-Cool went back home because he need to fetch her sis to his uncle house..so....jane! *hugs*

untill now still sms'ing with him....but...me starting tired liao~ and after i finish blogging i will go to bed liao because tomorrow school ler!!! haiz....and..and...now i already finish my blog!!! and tired too~~~ so i gonna stop here lor. dear lovely computer, byebye! if i free, i will on9! form 4 is not a relaxing year for me anywayz~ i gonna work harder liao~ gambatte to all! goodnight!

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Sweet New Year 2004/2005

2005-01-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

31st December 2004 (Friday)

today i didn't go out because my frenz is coming to my house~ haha, seems like alot ppl like coem to my house anywayz~ early in the morning quick bath because gtg for hair cut!!! school open soon and my hair like sarang burung! hahha! like usual meet see inn at the the shop then cut!! cut!! cut!!! then........omg! so ugly~ oh well, nevermind lar~ later we go to Mutiara shopping complex bought some present for her bf and A-cool~After finish it all, back home to my house lor! *swt* actually today i hav big mission to do and it is D.I.Y present for A-Cool! D.I.Y=starts! lipat bintang!!!! wahahha~ from 4p.m. start doing it and kinda disappointed is i can't finish the whole box just half only....it almost made me cry but luckily see inn hav good idea it is but soft toy inside the box~ so finally its done~!

around 8p.m A-cool is here liao~ i kinda afraid wanna giv him that present anywayz....but however i gav to him liao lor~ see inn went to Mei Lan's birthday party while i'm not going because teman A-Cool~ ok, actually today he really weird because didn't talk alot BUT hav a big present for me~ really big!!!! and he had say something that make me cry... mke me feel bad... but however the problem is done. Nothing B.D liao~ i spend my whole night with him and i feel very happy~ 1st i thought i hav didn't the wrong thing, but when i think it back... nothing at all~
yup! now is 00:00 that mean HAPPY NEW YEAR! oh ya! xiong ie birthday!!! call him!!! hard to call in but after few min can liao! talk awhile with him and suddenly feel very miss him! haiz! i miss alot ppl special CF!!!and i also get missed call from megumi! thank megumi! call her back and also talk awhile with she~

after finish calling ppl...is the time taht i should go home liao~ too late liao....byebye A-Cool! *hugs* back to my room and quickly open the presnet that A-Coll gav and..and..and...OMG!!!!! nani?! *touched* i love all the present!!!! tahnk you very veyr much A-Cool! *secret* when sleeping time, i hugs those present and sleep along! wahahaha~

1/1/2005 (saturday)

early in the morning been kacau by my mum because today is new year family day out! me kinda tired but however nothing much~ as long we all hav fun~^^ weeyy~~ we were out there about half day liao!!! really tired! around 7p.m. then went home~ later A-Cool say that he wanna come and find me, so "yes" for him~ around 8p.m. his here and like usual hang with him and talk with him~ ok, today i really really really really happy but i won't tell it out why i'm so happy because it is secret~ ^^ just taht i'm very happy untill i can't sleep well!!! arhh!!!! >.< *sweet day*

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Meaningful School Holidayz~

2004-12-30T02:40:00.000+08:00

okok~ be4 i start my blog i wanna say SORRY!!! GOMENSANAI!!! x1000000times because didn't update my blog~*swt* because always not at home......my mum also complain that the house phone r non stop ringing and all calls are for me.....i donno whom called me, but just wanna say sorry...

22nd December 2004 (wednesday)

start blog---weeyy >.<>

around 10p.m. see inn back home liao~ because she need go to work for the next day~ later me also ZzZzZ....because tired.....^^

24th December 2004 (Friday)

weeyyy!!!! actually i thought wanna sleep early today because too too tired but suddenly around 9p.m. see inn called me and said taht she is on the way coming to my house~!!!!! arrhh!!!! why suddenly come wor!!! but luckily i'm clever because i know is christmas and for sure taht she will give present so i also already ready a present for her liao.....Thanks god taht she like it~ ^^ now is 10:50p.m. and..and..and....suddenly A-Cool said taht he also coming to my house!!! nani??! me and see inn go wait for him at the guardhouse and he luckily didn't get lost....that good~ so what can i say is i can't believe that i celebrate Christmas with See Inn and A-Cool!!!!

Finally..........Merry Christmas!!!!! chit chat, laugh, run, jumping and bla..bla... oh ya! i also contack to alot of my fren but can't call them..i think because the line too busy liao BUT i manage call A-Boy *the 1st guy i like* weeyy!!! happy!!!!

01:15a.m. we all still chating....but around 01:20 see inn dad come to fecth her home liao~ so after See Inn go, a-Cool also go....then me back in room and rest..then ZzZzZz.......^^"

25th December 2004 (Saturday)

As i know today was See Inn, A-Cool and the others alst day working....so i pujuk my mum to go The Mall because wanna look for them.... around 5p.m. i reach there and guess what? A-Cool look really serious on working time~ so cute! hahaha~ again help see inn serve costumers since i work as promoter be4 and chit chat with alot of my fren....then tik..tak..tik..tak....time goes... already 8p.m. and my mum starting say tired, so i went back home lor~ actually today ifeel not very well because sick lor, but since all my fren was at The Mall and today are their last day work, so nothing B.D anywayz~

reached home around 8:45p.m. oh ya! forgot to open my present~ for this Christmas i gets 7 presents~ not really much but its doesn't matter anywayz~ as long we all happy~ OMG!!! i had forgot for one big news!!!! taht is in this specially day *Christmas* See Inn now hav BF!!!! so sweet~ her BF named is A-You 17 years old~ hav a very cute face! hahha~

27th December 2004 (Monday)

today is "couple day out" because....i also donno why.... this idea come from See Inn, so if anybody wanna to know, go and ask her! XD! from our gang, not really much ppl going because since it is "couple day out" For sure See Inn with A-You while me and A-Cool~ but..but.. A-You so clever and romantic knows to go jalan-jalan with Seen Inn but...and..and...see mine!! A-Cool just playing at arcade! didn't layan me...*sob* so i was too free and boring so i go take alot at the dancing mechine there and guess what!!!! Joshi-kun, Kaede, Craymel, Tofuking, Sandy, Shinnoir, BMJ and etc wtc are there!!! and they all really happy untill goe crazy secially for sandy i think... because she keep kacau'ing who ever dancing there....*XD+swt* after hang with them for awhile, i back to A-Cool there....and he still playing his game...but one nice thing that he did is for the high score of the game, he wrote my name down...*touched* hahahhaha~! but however, he still keep playing....seems like getting more boring, so i went for jalan-jalan alone and A-Cool didn't notice that.... so, go! go! go!

weeyyy!!! when i was walking around there*in TS* i saw alot things that want! but i didn't bring enough money....the thing taht i wan was around RM1XX and i just hav RM6X...haiz..... later my hp rang it was A-Cool since i got lil bit angry with him, so i didn't pick up his calls....very noisy, so i off my hp! hahha~ i wanna see what he will do....guess what? he runing in TS and shouting out my name....!!!! from far i already can heard his voice!!! arhhh!!! memalukan!!!!! *go and find him* aiyo!!!!!! very memalukan lar!!!! *no face liao* *kick A-Cool* stupid of him!!!! switch on my hp back and "ring!!!!" See Inn call and she said now she and A-you was on the way to Sungai Wang....so me and A-Cool start going to Sungai Wang look for both of them~

Sungai Wang---alot of thing happened and kinda memalukan to say it out...so i skip this part~ haha~ gomenasai....bla..bla..bla..bla..bla....now is getting late and is the time i should go home liao~ so again See Inn come to my house! byebye stupid A-Cool and bye to Cute A-You~ *hides away from see inn* hahaha~ neh, see inn won't mad wan~XD *think* 7:15p.m. reached home and again chit chat with see inn and she non stop say about her BF, A-You lor~ haiz.... then suddenly she also said about Cool and me getting better liao~ *swt* *kick see inn* hahahha~! "ring!!!ring!!!!" A-Cool call and he just ask me home yet or not, of course i say yes because my house to TS not really far anyway~

around 10p.m. see inn back home because tired dating with BF....XD! and me still sms'ing with A-Cool lor~ untill 4a.m.!!!!! OMG!!! tired~ ZzZzZz.....

28th December 2004 (Tuesday)

woke up early in the morning the suddenly sms comes....from A-Cool again...*swt* sms untill late evening then he suddenly said wanna come to my house!!! >.<>

29th December 2004 (wednesday)

OMG!!!!!!!!!!! today PMR results out!!!! >.<>

after finish talk to all my frens finally i can rest BUT suddenly A-Cool called and he said now he and A-you already at my condo guardhouse! *swt*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he come here to just take alook at me because scare taht i will do anything stupid thing because of the results~ aiyo!!!! me nothing lar!!!! today too lazy so i ask him to go back home earlier lor.Around 11:40p.m. he already go home while me lying on the bed~haiz....."ring..ring...ring.." hp rang is him again!!!! tiread lar! i know he really worry about me but i'm fine, nothing B.D happen~ chit chat on the phone untill 5a.m.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tired! after finish talked, *pooooffff* i'm death liao! ZzZzZz.....

30th December 2004 (Thursday)

arrhhh!!!!! untill today still got ppl called me and ask me about my results and i kinda hate to say about that topic liao~ *swt* around my dinner time, suddenly see inn called me and said that:" YA XUAN! ME NOW IN THE LIFT COMING UP TO UR HOUSE!" nani???!!!! see inn, why u didn't call me earlier wor! after few second see inn called, a-Cool call me say that he and A-You was on the way to my house!!!! nani??!! hey!!! what u guys doing anywayz? what kind of plan is this? why i donno? arrhh!!!!!! *hides* see inn keep lauhging at me because look very...very....donno how to explain while A-Cool and A-You laughing because me look very funny~ *swt*! see inn and a-you was dating at my condo punya padang mainan lar! gila! ada tempat lain tak mahu, nak tempat yang tak romantic, gila! hahahah~ while i was chating with A-Cool~

00:00a.m. see inn just went back home and same for A-Cool and A-You~ so me back in room and lying on the bed again~ A-Cool non stop sms me but i didn't care about it....when he call me, i also didn't pick up it too... just too lazy and too tired liao and guess what?~~~~FINALLY~~~~ finish my blog!!!! wahahaha~ boring and stupid blog!!! *evil laugh* me gonna cray liao! ok lar, now really tired.....gtg laio! byebye my dear lovely computer and sorry for my frens~ sweet dream and take care! *hugs*

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update again!

2004-12-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

weeyy~ >.<>

actually nothing much can say about this vacation~! because it's really hard to say it out~ u need to enjoy it then u know the feeling...*crapz* and of couse spend alot of money!!! *swt* bankrap lor~~ neh! nothing much! as long i hav fun then ok liao~ XD!

oh ya~ last time me hilang my hp but now already got another wan~ ish PANASONIC!!!! me love it but..but... not my dream hp....just "lao ya" hp~ my PANASONIC X400 had been cancel the order because me already used alot money and no money to buy it~ btw, yup! still using same number~*bleh* yada..yada.. my hp credit almost kosong liao~ because sms with alot alot ppl and my fingers kinda hurt~ me sms with craymel, shinnoir, snail and my school frenz~ need to delete those "stupid" msg liao~ XD~

ok back to the topic, vacation~ haiz...i really hav nothing t say ler~ just taht really hav fun! and u know, today when i just get back home...me suddenly in hell sick!!!!~ me feel darn cold and feel dizzy.... so hav panadols and rest.... when i woke up! weeyy! feel much better liao~ kinda weird sick anywazy~ *eyes blink*

ok lar...nothing to say liao~ and dear computer i know u miss me alot..same here too~ *hugs* me now gtg liao~ darn tired and wanna sleep-sleep~ so see u tomorrow lar, ok?! *muuaakkzzz* byebye

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2nd Dayz CF

2004-12-13T10:32:00.000+08:00

this ish recond blog about CF~ wow...darn tired lerXD~ ok today more tired but more fun than 1st dayz anywayz~ i think ish because Sunday ppl all free so more ppl come lor, Saturday some ppl working mar, so not very much ppl come~ *me ish crapping now* haiz..... let's see what i can say about 2nd Dayz of CF...oh ya! i met alot of my school, icq, reporter frenz and more more more. frenzzz.. and they can't believe that i wear such a costume~ because they all thought iris very sporting, talkactive, crazy mood..but when they saw me, they was like :" Iris, u look so lemah lembut and so quite wor~" NANI??!!! omg, itzit i really doesn't look like myself ler?! *swt* or i think ish because i'm too darn tired and kinda lazy to talk...tahtz why u guyz think like thatz~>.<

and yup! today more ppl cosplaying~ kaede and xiongie look rockz!!!! haha~ thznk to Kitsune about his good idea~ *kissing part* XD and i think Sandy *like* Kitsune ler~ because i saw she always around Kitsune~ really care about Kitsune lor...haha~ or maybe i think too much~XD and..and.. wow!!! and craymel got 4 leng lui around him wor! wonder which gir ish the one he like anywazy~ ^.^ oh ya!!! i almost forgot about my work!!! student reporter!!!! me and Wan Ting (yunagirl) start our work by interview some ppl~ kinda in rush lor.... and we didn't prepair/do any homework anythingz~ XD but luckily we hav done it all and now in proses'ing~ i think this report maybe will on news paper lor~ because this ish kinda interesting report anywayz~

the timre really fly very very darn fast~ because now already late evening.... and ish the time i should go home..*tired* but!!!!! suddenly idea pop up! they said wanna go and hav dinner at Bukit Bintang and i think Bukit Bintang ish near my house so tahtz mean i will join them but 1st need to make sure hades in safe~ because she going home alone taht day, kinda worry~ after she safe in a taxi, later me, kaede, angel, eve, megumi, neko,craymel and 4 girls walked to Titiwangsa monorail station..wow, really tired specially pity for my legs...sakit desu! at there we split up~ craymel and 4 girls one group and the rest one group gping to bukit nenas wanna meet up with the others~

ok, we already at Bukit Bintag/Sungai Wang...and..and..and.. kaede ish calling them... but but but....nani??!!! they all at Bukit Jalil!!!! *swt* what they NYAAAA~~~~ haiz... neermind lar~ we can go dinner by ourself lar~ so.. this time not Mc'D ish KFC~ XD! the most weird and funny ish.... all ppl ish looking at me!!!! with my stupid costume... of couse got some stupid guyz "ffiiuuttt" at us lor~ hate them~ even when i oder my meal other ppl around me were like "swt" and..and.. me hav no idea what should i do next...*bleh~* and of couse!!!! we crap alot when we having dinner lor! hahaha~! yaoi topic most! After we finish our dinner we go to sun comic just for..for.. gomenasai..no idea with it~ hahha~^.^ after sun Comic we went to TS! for arcade~ wait!! be4 i forgot, i wanna say sorry to kaede!!!!!!!!! GOMENASAI KAEDE!! because didn't dance properly.... my stupid costume!!! @!$!@%$!%!$! however, again, gomenasai....>.<

i think around 9:38p.m. kaede daddy called liao..tahtz mean she should go home liao~ so me same too~ so me go to Chow Kit alone and wait for my mum there~ alot stupid guyz kacau me.. but for me kacau me ish nothing B.D just don't anggap me ish a "chicken" then ok liao~ if not i sure very very darn sad~ now ish 10:40p.m. at home liao~ darn tired...so....ZzZzZz.... XD byebye computer~

p/s: i'm using yesterday mood to write this blog anywayz~ haha~ i didn't write my blog after i reach home from CF because darn tired liao~ ^^" so....nothing to say liao~ byez~

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1st Dayz CF

2004-12-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

wow~ i woke up really early today ish just because for Craymel's morning call...*swt* 7:30a.m. watching untill 8:05a.m. then called craymel...luckily ish easy to make him bangun if not i sure will kill him~ 1st i should fetch craymel but since he going with his's frenz then..bleh~ later, now already 9:02a.m. the time i should call See Inn because to remind her to coming over my place... time fly pass~~ already 10:15a.m. and See Inn ish here liao~ after she came we both go for Breakfast at my condo Bistro/Restauran... we ate alot anywayz~ just for make us don't feel so hungry during CF~XD! talk..talk..talk....and now ish already 10:45a.m.!!!! OMG! i'm late~ rush change my clothes then run to my mum's car waiting for her while she with her slow motion move~*swt*

11:30a.m. I'M HERE AT BALAI SENI LUKIS NEGARA! omg...very scare anywayz~me and See Inn slowly walk to the main centre at there then on our way to up stairs~ walk..walk.. walk... SUDDENLY! Iris!!! *looks around* ish Kio-S called me! OMG!!! he look diffirence anywayz! i almost tak kenal him! wahahaha~*evil laugh* snap! cikcaik! pisture taken~ wow~ i thin i look ugly lor...because rush to CF didn't make up...*swt* chat a bit~ later continue to up stairs.... AGAIN! ish Yumi this time *hugs* hahaha~ cikcaik! pic taken again~ itzit i wear really weird today so many ppl take pic with me?! *blur*

FINALLY! i'm up here liao~ i donno where should i go...then suddenly See Inn saw Xiongie back there with Doujin group..so, we walked there lor~ Ciel was shock because i'm wearing weird and...and..and.... xiongie!!!!! why u shouted like that??!!! really scared me u know.... u shout like i'm "rogoling" u...*swt* joking XD~ arrhhhhh... too many camera around here make me darn dizzy~ ITZIT REALLY I WEAR SO DARN WEIRD?! someone answer me...*sob x 100 times* i know today my costume not really sesuai on me.. but this ish the last minutes costume that i can get after tired choosing alot others costume...ya..da....yada.... too many ppl known me but..too bad... i donno them..hahaha~ and, Leo ish here too!!! i hang with him for long time while waiting for ayase, kiske, kaze-chan, blue and yunagirl come... and u guyz, plz don't get the wrong msg~ me hang with Leo doesn't mean anything special~ XDXDXD!!!! yup! they all show up liao! hahhaa~ yunagirl pretty, kiske cute, ayase kawaii, blue happy go lucky and kaze-chan cool! XD! actually me ish really really dizzy today.. because too many camera around me.. walk there camera, then walk here camera too~*swt*

i think ish 5p.m. something liao~ finally i can rest.... sit and rest~ plus up with chat...XD! haha~ okok... getting more tired and dizzy.... while they all plan going to MV for dinner but sotty guyz.. me too tired~ wanna go home~ wait! almost forgot, craymel ish with me~ btw, GOMENASAI CRAYMEL! me can't send u home just dropped u at Bukit Nenas monorail~ actually ish really trafic-jam out there~ ish hard to go ur place specially at MV main lebuhraya road~XD sorry *hugs*

now kinda bad mood~ because....
1st. LOST MY MONEY! make me can't buy anythingz i wan~
2nd. DIZZY! camera around me~
3rd. HUNGRY! because haven eat yet~*swt*
4th Blur+ Sad! blur because donno what should i do and sad because ppl can buy their "dream" thing.. but i can't~
5th. ANGRY! because....*secret* because someone had make me angry lor~ haiz....
6th(last) SLEEPY! too tired~

so, from above show that i should go to sleep NOW! so byebye~ to be continue tomorrowXD

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Honest-To-Goodness or i'm too stupid?

2004-12-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

Honest-to-goodness? WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?! *swt* now i feel like lying in the hospital without moving just wanna get some rest~ not because tired or what, because whatever i do or however it happened, i can't help myself...

Stupid? this ish the main problem!!!!! i can't help myself in anythingz~ even in contrling my mood, i can't make it *sob*... too stupid liao... now i know why ppl trying/wanna protect me... because i'm too stupid, donno take care of myself~ BAKA!

like today, W.G guy kinda moody because about his exam thingz, so i try my best to support him.... but last... i been scolded... *sob* because i'm too stupid and donno how to say some good support words to him. Everytime when i hav no idea what i should do up next...i sure will cry.. just like now... i know maybe some of u think that crying ish not the way to "-end-" a problem, but i really hav no idea...gomenasai!!!!!!! who ever reading this plz don't ask me anything, because i hav no idea what should i answer u guyz~ give me a break. W.G, sorry because today i had make u so angry i didn't mean to do that..just i wish i can help u....*sob*

i donno what i'm writing now..just i know that now i wanna a break.... dear computer, again very very very sorry because can't hang with u today~ hope u don't mind*sob* haiz....

p/s: Hades, sorry... i think tomorrow i can't go~ because no transpot~ but i wish i could meet u~ haiz... however,remember CF (sunday) u must come~ i'll wait for u~

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Student Reporter Camp

2004-12-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

ok, yesterday i should write out this blog but because too tired tahtz why.....^^"~ actually i prefer not writing out about this camp thingz because i think i wanna keep it in my heart and make it become more sweet -memories- and also in this camp i hav learn alot thingz~ really love this camp!

however, i just drop here to say that Wan Yi jiejie, very very thank u because for 4dayz 3 nitez u hav taught me and other group member "906" alot meaningful thingz~ and for me among all jiejie or korkor...u r the only one who ish the best and really care about our group~XD i will remember all the "proses" during in the camp~ and to Wan Ting, really really thank u if not of u i won't be in this wonderful camp~ now i know why u really really wanna me join this camp~ and i just wanna to tell u taht I DIDN'T REGRET JOIN THIS CAMP! there're more ppl taht i wanna to thank but....darn tired now.....X..D....

haiz...i really really really darm tired today~ i thought wanna sleep a bit longer but i hav alot of thingz/work need to do~ :3 really really sorry computer i can't hang with u today because gtg do somethingz else~ i'll will be back soon! *hugs* take care computer~

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Bluring and Busy dayz~

2004-12-03T18:25:00.000+08:00

from yesterday(thursday) untill today...i was so busy packing my bag~ why i packing my bag? because get ready going for camp tomorrow~ for 4days and 3nightz~ wow! long trip for camp anywayz~ neh~~~ me kinda lazy going for the camp..but..but...like i promise to Wan ting, so i must go~ but actually ish a good thing if i go for this camp because after this camp, secara rasminya i already a STUDENT REPORTER!!!! can't believe it!!! i really going to be student reporter "学生记者" for 学海~

MmMm...yesterday- actually i should go Elayne's house again because last time when her birthday party i went back home early..but at the end... yesterday i not going anywhere because too lazy~XD like usual on9 and hang my time with my pc~^.^ chat with my frenz~ i hav chat Hades, craymel, tofuking, jason, wai kok, snail, A-xiang, bunbun and..and..can't remember liao~ seems like alot ppl wor~ me didn't feel tired at all~ because ish a good thing that chatting with frenz althou not doing anythingz~ i kinda make Hades angry because keep saying about craymel infront her~ XD i don't mean too....gomenasai~ while in other conversation, craymel make me crazy because crapping funny jokes *swt* and jason non stop kau'ing girls at anywhere~ then A-Xiang keep asking me about hp price because i know alot about hp thingz~ while snail wanna hav a date with me next week and bla..bla..bla... what a wonderful dayz! *swt* ok and yup! again i already on9 for 8-9 hours~ haiz..... but really hav fun!

Today- same too~ just normal dayz on9 and continue packing my thingz/stuff~ Wan Ting going for camp today while my turn ish tomorrow~ and sorry to xiong ie because me cannot go for today outing at Seiji's house because tomorrow i need to check in really really early in the morning...so i better stay at home~ however, gomenasai~~~ and same thingz again that happened todayz~ chat with fren~ i hav chat with hades, josan, nicole, susila, bunbun, lydia megumi and snail~ finally berjaya tag susila join the forum(school league).. but she not really know about forum thingz.. so i had spend about half hour teaching her how to post~ and also chat alot with Hades~ haha~ we crap alot about craymel and tofuking~ i think we talk about craymel more than talk about tofuking~XD hahha~ i don't mean to say that hades like craymel.... just...neh~~ normal fren mar~nothing B.D anywayz~ and...hades~~~ me and craymel ish nothing~ wow~ wondering ish craymel reading this?! OMG, i feel like i will die soon~ XD hahaha~ me know alot about craymel because yesterday we chat alot and he say alot about his activity for today~ *swt* STOP!!! donwan talk about him liao~ i really afraid that u will non stop asking me about his thingz liao~ while i'm the one suppost ask u about his thingz~ *me ish crapping now!!* craymel if u reading this, i'm very very sorry wor~ and i need to say again that u r good, funny and cute guy~ don't so zi beri sure alot girls out there will like u~ just that now they all blind~XD

ok... today need to sleep very early~ because tomorrow need to wake up at 6a.m.~so i will not on9 for 4 dayz~ that mean..... SEE U GUY ON WEDNESDAY!!! and for my lovely pc, take care wor~ my brother will using u alot for these day (because i not at home) *nods* so u can just hang or dc if he bully u wor~ don need to belas kasihan wan lar, ok!? byebye~ *muuaakkk*

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Outing again!!!!! >.<

2004-12-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

haiz.......today actually i was thinking not going for today outing..but since some ppl ish bising-bising because wanna me to go..so, i go~

11:30a.m. finish bathing and get ready to go out while waiting for kaede~cray said that he ish not coming.. feel pity for him~ haiz... and hades too.. because afraid taht her mum won't let her go out... :( later, now already 1p.m. and i think i better going now if not i really really won't go out liao since already so late... :3 again... go to monorail station and from there go to Imbi~ wait!!! i received 2 msg 1st one ish from Craymel and he said taht he is coming! tahtz good!! and another one ish from hades she said that she not coming..so pity... one good news and one bad news~ haiz..i wish taht hades can come too but her mum won't let her... kesian *hugs* now ish around 1:40p.m. and i already at TS arcade~ didn't saw anybody that i know..so i thinking wanna go for comic shop 1st then come back again...when i was on my way going, *ppoofff* kaede and 2 girlz are here liao *hugs* then shinnoir ish here too and also our special tetamu Kitsune~ but..but... kitsune look like kinda moody today, donno why lor... haiz..... go for arcade 1st then went to Mc'D again~*blur* too many Mc'D in my mind now~*swt* later..... kaede's hp rang, ish craymel! now he ish on his way come to Mc'D..and yesh along with tofuking too! haha~ again we crap alot ish fun! with alot ppl here~ but kitsune was not crapz too much because he was drawing somethigz....haiz... donno what happened with him... maybe he too tired gua...

later again we went to arcade and yup! i played alot~ $$$$ fly away liao~ XD "ring... ring.... ring......" kaede's hp rang again and it was Hisashi(Shaun)...after met up with him, we went for lunch at.... aiks! i can't remember the shop name...neh~~ whatever lar~ hahaha~ kaede's hp rang again!!!!!!!! ish Shinnoir~ XD *he at arcade* hahaha~ he was like really enjoy playing the game untill forget us...*swt* i go fetch him but wait!! craymel ish kacau'ing me~ because he also wanna fetch shinnoir too~ *poky him* haha~ but he look cute and funny anywayz~ and yesh shinnoir ish here with me and craymel liao so now went back to the restaurant~*crapz!!!!* AFTER FINISH, WE WenT TO ARCADE AGAIN!!!! wow, seems like we all are arcade best frenz~XD *joking* after finish our token then.... xiao ying showed up! she too late liao~ haiz... that time we was on our way to Sungai Wang (sun comic) but xiao ying not following us because she wanna dance so kitsune teman her~ NOW!!!!! we already at sun comic at sungai wang and yesh!!! my kenshin ish here!!! XD!!! about 15 minutes later xiao ying and kitsune are here~ we laughed alot here~ alot ppl looking at us anywayz~ neh~~ nothing B.D anywayz~

after finish buying all the thingz that we wanna to buy, xiao ying and kitsune leave us because i donno where r they going but i think thatz ish their plan..so nevermind lor~ so rest of us went to Low Yat Plaza~ we didn't do nothing at there just crapping around~ XD Craymel i hate you!!! because u keep missed calling me!!! arhh!!! neh~ i won't hate u lar, just... donno how to say the feeling just forget it~*bleh* and tofuking also played missed call too!! arh!!!! *swt* my hp was like non stop ringing because of them~ *sob* kesian for my hp~ now already 6:3p.m. and it was getting dark out there..so i think i better go home.... so byebye everybody~ kaede, Shaun, Sandy and me ish going home~ just left craymel, tofuking and shinnoir back to TS arcade... they wanna dance again..haiz... be4 i go in to the monorail it is last missed call from craymel.. and guess what craymel, i won't play missed call with u because i don't wish to waste my hp $$... hahaha~ i donno how much u waste ur hp $ just what can i say ish...fun! XD *crappping* because ur missed call won't work on me otherwise i'm helping u 2 waste ur hp credit..understand~?!

NOW!!! blogging lor~and i know i crapping alot...can't believe ish i donno what i'm writing... *swt* and getting sleepy lor~ but i wanna watch movie so *drink coffe* joking! haha~ ok lar~ i hav nothing to say liao~ so byebye to my dear pc~ see u tomorrow~ *hugs and kisses*

Outing again!

2004-11-30T23:29:00.000+08:00

i think this holiday i went out alot alot of times liao with alot of activities~ and yesh this outing was fun too!

late today~ now already 10a.m. and i still lying dwon feel like lazy to go out~ BUT! today ish the 1st outing for The Nyoo forum!!! so I MUST GO! XDXDXD...so now ish 11:50a.m. and i already at Sungai Wang...now i think that i should not worry for being late for outing..because TS/SG ish near from my house anywayz~ only took around 15-20 minutes to get there~ so waiting at the pintu besar of sungai wang and looking forward for kaede because i donno anybody else... oh yesh! i remember that asakura_yoh(hades) told me that she will wear all black today and is saw a girl with whole black clothes..but..i don't dare to go talk to her because afraid taht i get the wrong person~ FINALLY kaede ish here and she ish late liao~~*patpat* and yesh!! i gueesed rightly! the girl ish asakura_yoh!!!! hahaha~

After that we went to Sun Comic shop..and there r 3 of sun comic shop in sungai wang~ i gald taht i kown all 3 shop liao! so easier for me next time wanna find comic!! XD after Kaede finish buying her whole set of P.T we go to pintu besar again looking forward for shinnoir this time~ 1stly i thought that shinnoir ish a gal but the end ish a guy~ can't believe *swt* he kinda funny anywayz! we went to Mc'D and we crapz alot there too! XD later Craymel ish caling kaede and craymel ish at TS now..so we get ready to TS..then GO~

2p.m. something now~ and we at TS liao~ when to 6th floor by running away from kaede~ *kidnapping her P.T set* hahha~ OMG!! again!!! i thought taht craymel ish a gal but at the end craymel ish a guy/boy!!!! can't believe *swt* however..we hang at arcade and i had played cute games! kinda like it anywayz! later we went to Mc'D again~~~*blur* and yesh again, we crapz alot there~ really enjoying myself~ but hate my fren because keep missed call me but he doesn't show up...*bites* neh~~ nothing B.D about him...kaede was thinking too much~ hahah~ balasan ish back!! xiongie!!! we crapz alot about Kaede, Xiong Ie and Miyabi...kinda funny anywayz~ and craymel ish really really really darn cute and funny too~ i like to talk with him~ tofuking was too cool~ but he also crapz along with us too~

5:35p.m.~OMG!!! ish the time i should go to KL Sentral fetch my mummy!!!! arhh!! in rush!!! quickly say bye to them and kinda tak sampai hati because wish that can continue talk with them.. haiz.. run to monorail going to KL Sentral and finally found my mum~ around 6p.m. i think~ XD again for the 3rd time went to Mc'D but this time only bought Ice-Cream! OREO ish good! XD then went back home lor~

7:1op.m. reached home...and sitting infront pc now blogging while chatting with hades+kaede and cray~ and cray making some funny jokes~ *punchy him* darn cute~ Hades/Kaede thought that i like craymel.....haiz... i like him as a fren anywayz~ if u guyz thinking for other meaning... then wait for the future lar~ hahha~

ok~ kinda excited because wanna watch tv now~XD so...byebye my dear pc...see u again tomorrow~*hugs and kisses*

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Fun and enjoying vacation~

2004-11-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

THE STUPID CONECTION MAKE ME NEED TO WRITE OVER AGAIN MY BLOG AND I'M VERY LAZY NOW! *bleh~* *swt* i hav nothing to say because lazy to write again the story~ so what can i say ish i really really enjoy this vacation~

AND the most important thingz ish i'm here to say taht i and A-Boy ish nothing special relationship >.<>

*crapz..lazy to continue liao because too tired~*

3Days and 2nights at GenTing..cold!

2004-11-26T01:05:00.000+08:00

weey~>.< stupid conection made me need to write over again my blog~ kinda lazy.. so cut some activites lar~*lazy* wahahaha~

23rd November 2004 (Tuesday)

wake up early in the morning around 7a.m. to get ready to genting lor! happy! me going with my frenz..hui leng,hui teng and li sha~ darn happy because finally we can go out for such a long trip special for lisha because her mum don't let her go out for a long time liao~ *huggles all* we met up at Ampang Park Putra station around 11a.m. then go to terminal putra the from there take bus go to genting...it was fun being together, laughing and playing around~ but.. but... can't believe thatz my money gone... been stolen by stupid invisible human~ i donno how the money gone, my frenz said now those ppl became more clever in stealing thatz why i can't feel when someone steal away my money~ me didn't sad just hate the person~ however, we now are enjoying our holiday so don think too much about bad thing~ we go to genting by bus~

we reaced there around 1pm. and we took cable car~ OMG!@ accident! be4 we go in to the cable car, the infront cable there hav an accident! a girl stuck under the cable...me donno how she get under the cable car.. just for sure, the girl ish long hair, her eyes blur blank white and she bebuih came out from her mouth~ and we all turn scare and not ready to go in to the calbe car~ so just let other ppl go 1st~ again...this ish the reason why i don like ride cable car!!! because its very dangerous!!!! after 10 minutes~ we all cool down then we go for the cable car~ from the moment we inside the cable car~ we all start think for topic to make we didn't think bad thingz~ so fanillay we saved~ since today had happened alot of thingz~ so we go to hotel to get some rest~ and i like our room~ because nice view! can see thw whole outdoor theme park! so nice!

now already 4p.m. so we go for tea at...at..can't remember the shop name lar~ we had our evening tea there~ chat..chat..laugh...laugh...darn happy and we didn't feel tired at all~ wahaha~ weeeyy >,<>.< 1token="RM1" token="RM0.50">

24th November 2004 (Wednesday)

NOW ALREADY 3A.M in the morning and we still at starbuck and not sleep yet! XDXDXD back to our room at Resort Hotel and continue chat~ lisha said today we all don't sleep so.....ok! sound cool! wahaha~ CONTINUE chat! XD :3 okok...now already 6a.m. in the morning and we all still awake~ sound cool here because we all still chattingXD hahha~ "ring..ring..ring" morning call! tahtz mean already 7:30 a.m and ish the time we should go for breakfast! hahaha~ we all happy because we didn't sleep and now our eyes ish like panda eyes *yamn* change colthes and go for breakfast! finish our breakfast, quickly we go to outdoor theme park! now ish 9a.m. in the morning and theme park starting crowded~ -can't explain all the activity, so cut this part-

1p.m. our lunch time~ we go to Frist Wolrd Plaza and find restourant to hav our lunch~ me didn't eat because not hungry same as lisha too..so only hui leng and hui teng having lunch~ after lunch all starting tired i think ish because because we didn't sleep last night and also we play alot crazy game in the theme park just now~ so back to hotel get some rest~ hahaha~ 3 of them asleep kecuali me~ i donno why i didn't sleep or maybe i not tired at all! geezz....XD 4p.m. liao! i kejut bangun 3 of them but only 2 of them bangun... lisha ish lazy and tired... so tahtz mean she continue sleep~ me, hui leng and hui teng again go to theme park and continue our fun time~ -cut here again because hard to explain all fun activites- "ring....ring..ring...." phone rang~ ish lisha called and she say she coming over here~ so we wait and finnaly she show up... so... continue play! and..and.....arrhh!!!! cute leng zhai!! wearing red shirt!!!! 4 of us like that cute leng zhai~ he was playing the spinner so we line up to play spinner too~ and yes, cool game! but after few round the cute leng zhai go liao *sob* hui teng said she bet that we can meet him again~ so i think *sure*!!!! XD ;3 so back to hotel take a bath and go for dinner~ it's buffer tonight and WE DID EAT ALOT~ omg~ hahah..i think is because we use all our energy during playing tahtz why we all so hungry~

now ish already 8:30p.m. we decide go to Fisrt World plaza take a walk or should say shopping~ but we didn't buy anything at all anywayz~ "OMG!!!! THE CUTE LENG ZHAI ISH HERE!" lisha shouted! and...and...i can't believe taht we able meet him again!!! dream come true!!! wahaha~ we all so darn happy and keep walk around his area~ he and his's frenz there~ luckily not gf~ XD wait! already 11p.m. now!!!!!! *swt* however, the cute leng zhai ish going back too.. i donno where he live(which hotel donno) *sob* but i already happy because we can met the cute leng zhai~ hhaaha~ so then 4 of us back to hotel but we drop at arcade 1st to hav last fun for today~ then we back to hotel~ ok! for sure today we all sure sleep wan~ because really darn tired specially our eyes like very heavy~ so...ZzZzZz....

25th November 2004 (Thursday)

today ish our last day liao~ and we all woke up at 8:30a.m.~ kinda early but we need to check out today so...*sob* we had our breakfast then snap some picture then pack our bag then cheekout~ *sob* time hav fly so fast....kinda "bu she de" to leave~ but we still need to go back home today~ so now...home liao~ *sob* me feel like still wanna play again~ but i got another vacation tomorrow~ so...*swt+sob* 11a.m. reaced home and on9~ mails 76(yahoo) 25(msn) tired to check...

me sit infront the computer untill now liao~ now ish 12:47a.m and oh ya~ just now 11:55p.m. we called A-Boy because 26th Nov ish his birthday and we had talk for awhile but in same time ish Kitsune birthday too~from 12:07a.m. untill 12:56a.m. me call kitsune but his phone line ish busy... i think sure got alot his frenz calling him~ so i starting tired so go to sleep at 1:20a.m. last again just wanna to say thanzk to hui leng, hui teng and lisha because i really had alot of fun... also to A-Boy and Kitsune Happy Birthday to both of u~ bye dear computer, me going to sleep liao~ ZZzzZz...

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What i'm Thinking anywayz?

2004-11-22T11:54:00.000+08:00

me always think alot...really alot~ geezz.. donno what should i do anywayz~ just..Bleh! me slept at 2:15a.m. but at same time me still "rolling" on the bed because keep thinking~ me donno why i always keep thinking about W.G..just donno why..no reason... he really make me very worry.. but i don't dare to talk alot with him because afraid that i'll make his mood more down...swt... but i really wanna talk to him..OMG..donno whatz i'm crapping now~

9:06a.m. me woke up liao and walk to infront of my PC and on9~just surfing and updating my computer now~ nani? alot of history msg wor~ and since when i saved history conversation between me and W.G ler? 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8...9!!!! nani?! 9 conversation i had saved liao?! can't believe~ ok, seems i got alot of time today(last day free time) so read all the coversation again to know the reason why i save it be4~... ... ... ... ...OMG~ now me know liao why i saved it~ because all the convertiaon really meaningful for me! really important~ and i can't believe tahtz i so care about W.G~ ok, for sure now..yup! i like and lil bit love with W.G but!!! now we already seldom talk so... not too much~ but i miss him very much~~ i think already 3 week me didn't chat with him liao~ and 3 week we didn't talk~ *swt*

untill now still thinking of him and he ish in bad mood lately...how i know? "secret" ok?! hehhe~ me now ish crapping and spamming at my own blog...not B.D anywayz~ wahaha~ but i'm here to wish and hope W.G will hurry back to normal~ because i knew alot of his frenz out there tahtz really care about him~ really worry and care about him! i meant it! so...God Bless U

and oh ya~ me ish going again~ for how many dayz i donno..just...my dear computer, take care~ i'll miss u~*huggles* i'll me back as soon as possible~*muuaakkkzzz*

Nothing special just didn't on9 for a while...

2004-11-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

ok, i really really sorry my dear lovely computer~ because didn't on9 for a while~ *huggles* and it's nothing special oting in these few dayz anywayz~

FRIDAY 12TH NOVEMBER 2004
actually today don wan to go anywhere but however i did go out to MV with CF frenz~ but i didn't go to Seiji's house because kinda lazy anywayz~ and i hav said that if Kaede and Kitsune going then i will go but at last only kaede going but not kitsune~ so i didn't go~ and..and...and.... guys~ plz...me not going because of kitsune is because I AM LAZY GAL~ bleh~^^ and oh ya...today whole night i hav spend by talk on the phone with Zhu Tou~ actually i donno what is going on with us..or just only normal frenz~ *blur*

SATURDAY 13TH NOVEMBER 2004
early on the morning packing up my bag to get ready going to my uncle's house~ packing up my bag because i going to overnight there~ wahaha~ so thatz mean i'm not going to on9 lor~ today also ish a very very busy dayz~ why? helping my aunty cook and bla...bla...hahha~ eat alot too! delicious meal anywayz! at night~ me and my cousin sleep together in her room~ and same time she had taught me alot of life moral "thingz" kinda interesting but i think still not ready to face it anywayz~ and she keep asking me who ish the person thatz make me missed so much~ so 1st comes to my mind ish the 2nd guy that i like~ for a nickname i called him W.G. why ish he? i hav no idea about it~ the she asked me who do u think that person missed me so much? OMG~ i hav no idea with it anywayz~ *swt* chat..chat..chat...now already 1:16 a.m. and we still chatting~ then suddenly i said " Zimah, sleep lor~ if not tomorrow ur bf said u not pretty liao.." after that she was like~" yeah...better sleep" so......what a funny ending and we zZzZz......

SUNDAY 14TH NOVEMVER 2004~
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AND MAAF ZAHIR BATIN~ what a nice day ish today~ and i hav eat alot alot alot alot alot~~~ yesterday i remember that i was 43.5 kg and today!!!! nani?? 44.7 kg? can't bealive that i ate alot~ gezz....wahahah~ however, really enjoy my time today~ and now ish 6 :25p.m. and ish the time my mum said we should go home liao~ so i packed up my bag and throw into the car and "bye uncle, aunty and Zimah" home! but..but...tomorrow balik kampung~ need to sleep early~ haiz....-night-

MONDAY 15TH NOVEMBER 2004
now ish 7a.m in the morning and i feel so sleepy or maybe because yesterday talk on the phone with Zhu Tou untill late night and now feel tired~ nut however, still need to get ready to balik kampung~ and tired~ we reached here around 1:18p.m. something~ and what im waiting for??? play!!! wahahah~ gezzz... sad thing ish my mum said me going back to KL today around 6pm. but.. but.. i still wanna hav fun..*sob* tik..tak..tik..tak..time has go...now already 6p.m. same time as i gtg liao~ haiz...i like my kampung very much! really had alot of fun anywayz~ but... however, i still need to go home liao~ haiz..*huggles everybody* byebye~

TUESDAY 16TH NOVEMBER 2004
ok~ today i also need to go out again~ where i'm going? today activity ish secret~ i donno when i'll be back~ but i'll try a.s.a.p i can~ -bye-

SUNDAY 21ST NOVEMBER 2004
hello!!!! i'm back!!! and nothing to say liao~ just kinda miss u my dear computer~ and in these few dayz~ i'm not at home only left my mum....geez...my mum crapping now~ because these few dayz alot of guy calling me~ the phone ranging nonstop make my mum hate it~ when i ask how many ppl calling for me..she said " alot lar!" *swt* she like very blur because she donno how many ppl liao~ and i also don't care so much~ because kinda hate and lazy to know who called me~ however~ *huggles computer* love u!

Me Not Cute!!!

2004-11-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

ok~ today i almost forget about meet up with my 2 lil cute pet sis~but however today woke up at 7:09a.m. and that choose clothes...like usual it's hard to choose a good one anywayz~

8:30p.m...finally done with it and follow my mum to her office to help her~ actually not helping her, just kacau~XD i think this is my 2nd time going to her office anywayz~ and me not really like going to her office because those ppl kinda scary~ or i should say that because i am the daughter to a manager...and they should respect too?! no!!! they layan me too baik and make very very afraid~ *swt* and they keep saying me cute and polite~ geezz.....me not! why alot ppl said me ish cute but in real life me not cute anywayz~

however, now already 12:30p.m. is the time that i should meet up with my siss~ me reached at my ex-school about 1:06p.m. but they haven show up yet so me talked to my junior....the incoming board for pengawas sesi petang ish really bad~ those junior kinda rude to senior and tak tahu malu..me not really like them anywayz~i mean now those form1 new junior~ my junior ish form 2 now~ and proud of her because good in duty and really care about pengawas board~ just i wish that form 1 junior will better~ while when i was sitting at the Gazebo and talking to alot junior...suddenly got ppl said : busy jie, u cute!" nani??!!! me not cute!!! not again~~~ and then topic had changed to about me....*swt& how many time i need to told u gusy that I'M NOT CUTE?! geezzz... Finally, my sis show up~ haha~ my sis also my junior anywayz~ my 1st sis ish from2 and the 2nd sis ish form 1..both of them are junior~ me very happy~

Hahaha~ alot ppl jealous at us because good relationship~ because alot ppl thought that if i hav 2 pet sis..than they both will very "chuan" and hate each other...but!!! they're not!! they very very good~ should i said they are best frenz too! OMG..me ish crapping now~ ^^ i think maybe to happy because of them~ later Suet Mei joined our conversation~ and she also jealous at us~ *swt* 3 sister and Suet Mei...funny!!! XDXDXD Suet Mei, don need to jealous lar~ because u got brother at home but me not ler~ only hav pet brother~ :3

After that...they start saying that they hungry so me "run" away from school to Ampang Point shopping complex to hav lunch~ hahaha~ we kinda bad ler~ because we shouldn't run just like thta..but..neh~~whatever lar~ now ish 2:23p.m. and we were at Mc'D... me cannot eat because fasting so just only they eat~ while having lunch Suet Mei take snap....weeey~~ >.<>

okok~ chat..chat..chat..and time has goes...and also the time that i should go...kinda berat hati ler~ because feel fun with them~ but..however, Vivian, Ann and Suet Mei, byebye~ hope can see u guys again~ now happy holiday~ but!! wahaha~ i sure will call u guys for come out and hav fun again! promise!

tired..tired..tired...oh ya~ be4 i forget...OMG!!!!!!!! can't believe it!!! ahhaa~ me really cray liao~ because kitsune birthday ish same as the 1st guy that i like!!!!! can't believe it! geezz... no wonder something when i hang out with kitsune feels like kinda femiliar and he sometime kinda move/style kinda same like the 1st guy that i like..hahaha~ omg, kinda miss the 1st guy now~ now the problem ish how i should celebrate their birthday? 2 different person and they donno each other~ the 1st guy taht i like has make a birthday party at his house..so if kitsune did the same thingz too..then i'll die!! haiz.....neh~~ me now tired...wanna get rest liao~ so..bye my computer~ see u again a.s.a.p *huggles*

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Should i go ahead or stop? I think Stop better!

2004-11-09T17:48:00.000+08:00

MmMm...today didn't go anywhere~~ why? i think maybe because of Hari Raya coming soon and better stay at home and help mum to cook or whatever~ and...and.....geezz......same thing happened again...not really like it anywayz...what situation? life+love problem~

all ppl keep asking same question to me " Iris, u sure got bf, right?! good!" but when i say i don hav they all turn blur eyes...because they don believe me...*swt*... and when i say don't hav some maybe happy..geezz..guys.... but me really really never think to hav one actually kecuali the person that i like~ the person that could giv me warm feeling and safe feeling... i think i had found one person ish 2 years ago...and he had the same feeling with me just that me didn't together because got pihak ke-3 thatz ish his best ever frenz...*sob* untill now still same just frenz~ and last 2-3 month ago i also had met a person that giv me the same feeling but... i know the result even i didn't go ahead...how i know? by my heart....

1st guy can't together because pihak ke-3 and the 2nd guy ish i give up because i already know the result... and me ish very blur because guys keep beside me...and i don hav feel with them anywayz~ evn i reject or not still same~ they won't go away*sob* really wanna run away from this problem but i can't..nobody will help me for slove this problem anywayz~ now, got a guy showed up and he can give me the feeling but just that i can't believe much... because for me he just "sweet mouth" and "flower heart"...

and..and...gezz...*swt* guest18 keep teaching me about life+love problem...thatz mean he wanna me go ahead for the 2nd guy even i know the result...but i dont dare~~ because i know the result!!! i give up!!! if i go ahead and i'll fail and tahtz just make us paiseh when we meet up again... and i don like that! just...just..arr!!! guest18 stop!!! me really dont dare..really....*sob* even u said " once you will scare of it always" or "you scare of being rejected soo much that you might let go of great chances just because your brain think otherwise" or "process is more important that result" or "chances is infront of you ... appreciate it or not is up to you" or whatever else...

ok...i'll stop about this liao~ and now start thinking about..HARI RAYA!! weeeyy >.<>

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TS plus up with Yuri?!

2004-11-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

Today i though just wanna stay at home and get rest since i already go out everyday~ but suddenly phone rang and it's kitsune!! wahaha~ He ajak me go to TS... frenz 1st in my world so i said "ok,yup! meet u there." now ish 11:45a.m. and he said meet at TS 1p.m. so go take a bath and choose my clothes...Arhh!!! i hate to choose clothes anywayz~ because it's hard to choose a good one~ OMG! already 12:25 and i still stuck with choosing clothes...NO WAY! i must get hurry anywayz because hate to be late...so just simply choose a very "lau ya" T-Shirt and Stupid jean...then..*ppoooofffff* on my way to TS!

and...and..now is 12:40p.m i stuck in trafic-jam out here~ hate it so much...swt...but finally i reached TS at 1:07p.m. and i'm late liao...rush go to 6th floor!!! wait! on my way going to 6th floor, i met alot of my school frenz!! really alot! wow! geezz...just can't believe it! and now sure Kitsune thinkig where am i because now already 1:40p.m. still chatting with my frenz. However i still need to go and say "byebye" to my lovely frenz~ *running up to 6th floor*

FINALLY! i'm here~ i go to find kitsune at his "favourite meachine" but i didn't see him but i saw bunny-chan ish dancing~ darn cool! later kitsune pooff up! wahahah~ sweaty of him because tired dancing...^o^ oh ya, kitsune brought his 14 years old brother too... 1stly i don't know that his borther ish 14 years old because he look like 12 years old something for me..or maybe i got eyes problem...neh~ gonna check it later~ so, bunny-chan kitsune really good in dancing and i'm the WORST...*swt+sob* later few minutes later, OMG my frenz again... but this time is couple fren but not really normal because they are YURI...... i donno when they get started and i'm not interested to know anywayz... after than Yuri couple goes to Sungai Wang for Lunch and me still in TS watching bunny-chan and kitsune dancing~ wow!!! his brother also knew how to dance!!! so paiseh because me donno lor...*sob* later bunny-chan go home liao~ *huggles*and..and.. no!! kitsune keep dragging/tagging me to dance but me donno anywayz...but his *puppy eyes*(i think) make me said "just once" and he happy~ so i go change token and get ready to play~ kinda scary... but after trying, it's kinda fun but need alot of energy~_~

"ring..ring..." kitsune hp rang and ish Kaede called!!! nani? she coming?! weeyyy!!!! good!!!! after kitsune finish dancing we went to 4th floor look for Kaede~ hahaha~ she choosing hadiah for her school teacher and her fren came along that is her frenz is Ketua Pengawas...it's good but her frenz too too thin....geezzz.....and the funny part ish Kaede keep speaking mandarin and make Kitsune and her frenz blur~ what kaede talked to me about? hahaha~ about her frenz lor~ because her frenz donwan go home 1st but kaede wanna hav fun at TS be4 going home~ make kaede very very blur and crazy..i think...*swt* but however, keade still going to "favourite machine" to hav fun~ and..and..wow!!! she's good in dancing too!!!

now is 5:13p.m and the time i should go home liao~ geezz...trafic-jam again!!! however, reached home at 7:07p.m and had my dinner ish chicken again~ *swt* because my mum keep saying me thin gal and wanna me be more fatty~ *swt x100000 times* and starting tired~ i think maybe go out everyday liao..so.....sleep...

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Going Again

2004-11-05T18:54:00.000+08:00

Ok, i think i will not on9 for two day start from today night~ why? some reason lar~ neh~
dear my lovely compuer, i will miss u very much!!! but u don't miss me, ok?! if not i will feel bad and don't want to leave u liao~ but..but..however, i really need to go...*huggles* *mega glompz* *kisses*

Lastly, Bye!!! my dear lovely computer~ i'll be back as soon as posibble!

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Scolded by Wan Ting sob

2004-11-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

neh~~ actually today was a fine day for me~ just after wan ting called and told me something about the reporter thingz had make me down...and lil bit angry with her anywayz~ me didn't mean to angry her just that i hate when ppl force me to do something~~ if force me by softly maybe me i won't get mad but she SHOUTING on the phone! ggeezz..... don't like that anywayz~ for mr kinda rude~ i know we are frenz and shouldn't like this, but i think that she doesn't respect me as frenz either~ i never feel like this be4 anywayz~ and about the report thingz, i'm doing ti now and really make be blur~ because 1stly i already done with it~ i already wrote about 2 page for the report eassy but u said wanna 5 page and must pass up this saturday! u crayz meh~~ now is thursday night after i sleep ish already friday, and still need to write 3 more page~ swt!!!! and u think it's easy to continue the report that i already done~?! neh~~~hard!!!

weey~~~>.<

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Phone whole day

2004-11-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

today busy dayz~ my frenz called me to go out~ but me lazy~ and today wednesday~ usually wednesday is my day off~ so sorry guys~ AND AGAIN! A-Inn come to my house~ geezz~ seems like she really in love wiht my house liao~ hahaha~ joking! neh~~ she also wanna me go out, but sorry i lazy~ and A-Yin was chating with me , while A-Inn kacau'ing me because wanna chat with A-Yin~ so i help her msg A-Yin to say "hi" hahahha~ done~ A-Inn happy back!

neh~~~today me chat with alot ppl ....just that lil bit tired but happy too! because helping frenz now weeyy >.<>

talk..talk..phone non stop rang~ haiz..........noe already 3p.m. and finally nobody call me liao~ and i just remember taht i hav A-Yin number but haven conforim yet itzit real or wrong~ hehe~ because me always get the wrong copy with phone number~ and! OMG, me didn't copy wrong this time... and we hav talk alot too~ i think about 1 hour liao~ ahahhaa~ then suddenly we go in Kitsune topic~ so she gav me kitsune/Ham Liang number~ i think i must call he as soon as posibble because afraid i get the wrong number~ geezz.... oh well! finally done talk with A-Yin a few minutes later i call Kitsune and wow~ we also had talk alot too~ seems like almost 1 hour and half too! hahahha~ ^o^ tired but fun!

again~ i on9 because my frenz called me to on9 to teman her~ geezz~ well frenz! *huggy* hehe! wait!! wait!!! what? nani? why suddenly xiongie said sorry about yesterday when K at redbox?! neh~~ he doing nothing wrong but he said sorry~~ weirdo man~ wait! this only kitsune and A-Yin about the problem other ppl shoulden't know about this specially xiongie but xiongie know ler~~~!!! how come?! *pick up phone call A-Yin* but..but..A-Yin said she didn't tell anybosy about that~ but Kitsune won't tell anybody either because i believe him! and..and.. xiongie stop!!! stop saying sorry~ geezz..i hate when someone say sorry special him~ because he always say sorry without no reason~ haiz.........however, i tired now and i haven hav my dinner yet~ i think gonna cock hotdog anywayz~

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"K" at RedBox

2004-11-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

me today wake up very very early because without no reason~ and.."ring..ring..ring" !-Inn called~ aik! she bored and wanna come to my house? but..but.. me need to go out anywayz~ ok, like this lar~ "A-Inn, me today going out, u come along lar ok?!" with quickly A-Innsaid "sure!"
hahaha~ easy! and problem end! i told her must come to my house be4 11a.m because need reach at Sungai Wang 1p.m. and i don't like being late anywayz~ so, after A-Inn sampai at my house me change clothes and *ppooofff* jane~~ bro! me going out! wahahahha~ kesian for him because can't go out~ *huggles*

12:50... we reach Sungai Wang liao~ and waiting for Fui San/A-San come and also Keade/SuYin/A-Yin....1:06p.m. ggeeezz!!! A-Yin here! and..and..xiongie too! i can't believe that he comign along too! weeyy~ happy to see him even i know that he sitting for exam and suppost study now..but..bleh~~ whatever~ then we went to Mc'D look forward A-San and she's there!!! *huggles* miss her so much! hahha~ same time A-Yin and Xiongie had eat ice-cream~ funny! they really really look like couple but them NOT~ poor~ unlucky~ :3 so....we thinking where we wanna go..they we buat keputusan go to RedBox anyawayz~ so, we go lor! hehe~

2p.m. time we check in to Redbox room 50...cool and cold here~ *frezzing* *sniff* ^o^ we sang alot and A-Yin good in singing!!! good! and..and..A-San was singing like a star man!! really look like star~ but xiongie was not singing because he doing drawing for his doujinshi~ haiz..... nevermind~ just let him finish with his work 1st lar~ so..we sang alot songs!!! happy! but worst is my voice like shit anywayz~ ahahha~ like cow singing and ish gonna raining out there~ hhehehe~ joking! suddenly my mood down...i think i know why my mood down but however i need to control it~ i can't moody now because we having fun~ so! IRIS! cheer up! ok! back to normal~~ continue singing! lalalalalaalla *singing* >.<>

so...now already 6p.m. the time that we should stop and tonight i got thingz do to anywayz~ so... we split up~ xiongie and A-yin going to lrt and me,A-Inn and A-San going to monorail station..
but lastly me and A-Inn go home by taxi anywayz~ lazy to wait liao~ hehehe~ so about 6:50 me reached home~ and same again A-Inn come to my house and hav dinner together~ wahahha~ she daddy come pick her up at 9p.m. and after that me quickly finish up my work while my computer is on and on9 chating with my frenz~ kinda busy~ but i didn't ingore my frenz anywayz~ because alot of them was very bored~ ^o^ hoever, around 11 something me getting more busy and really need to off9 liao~ if not my work didn't finish lor~ so, off9 liao~ wahaha~

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Lazy + raining day!

2004-11-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

OMG! today i suppost go out~ but..but..geeezzzz... lazy man and now ish raining! cancel! cancel! sorry my lil cute sis Loy Vi Vian today i can't go meet u~ jie jie very lazy and bad luck today~ hope u don't mind....*huggles* next time jie belanja u makan, ok?! hehhe~ cute sis luv u very much! and remember say hi to my other sis ANN! aiya~~ she maybe mad with me now~ because didn't go meet up with u guys~ sorry!!! *sob*

neh~ today i think better stay at home lor~ because make me feel suck and tired now~ haiz... ok, on9!!! watch tv!!! DVD!! wahahhaa~ *evil laugh* ok~ today almost 10 hours i spend up at on9 and NUB!!! going crazy! hahhaa~ really darn crazy man! and kinda cute too~ *bleh* stop saying about him lar, just make me non stop laughing and tired too~ ^o^

wow~ i think i really need stop on9 now and should be my brother turn~ sorry bro! because u need to wait for long time, me evil and bad bullying u~ wahahha~ :3 ok, let's see what can i do~ oh ya, me need to call Fui San!!! because i hav promise her to call her once a month~ so today is the day~ and..and..we had talked alot today! and also laughing non stop! hahaha >.<>

Finally, she's on9 liao! ok, just ask her directly lar! thatz more easier anywayz~ and..and.. she said "ok!" nani? really? wahahahha!! happy!!! *dancing around* wahahah~ and i told her to invite other ppl because afraid that she will be alone~ hehehe~ wondering who she will ask ler... ahahaha~~~ok, DEAL! tomorrow 1p.m. meet up at main door Sungai Wang! so, see u there! bye!

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going out to Sungai Wang and TS!

2004-10-31T14:43:00.000+08:00

weeyyy~~ early in the morning, waiting for Siew Hui phone call~ because today we going to Sungai Wang and TS...

9a.m. finally she call liao~ ok! we will meet up at bus stop 11 a.m. OMG!! hurry up! get dress! ok~ now already 10:30a.m. and time that i should go out~ because i scare thatz when i went to kedaiseberneka at my condo here, i will talk alot with Ming Han~~ heheh~ because he love talk alot just like me..non stop! hehehehe~~ i'm at bus stop at 10:50a.m. and waiting for siew hui~ she is here around 11:08a.m. neh~~~ she lil bit late but nothing B.D anywayz~so we took but to sungai wang 1st because she wanna buy somethingz there~ about 12 we were there liao~ and she shopping..shopping..and shopping while i just giving out comment without buying anything~ because no idea what should i buy~ heheh^^

now already 1:30p.m. and she starting tired liao~ so....ish my turn!!!! i tag her to TS!!! because i wanna play there!!! wow! great! i hav alot of fun here!!! ahahhaha~~ and..and..and.. wait! today Bean got outing and they coming to TS too right?! ok, *look around* neh~~~ can't see them pun.. haiz... maybe they not here yet~ hahahaha~ continue with my game!!!! wow!!! already 5 p.m.!!!!! the time i should go because today i wanna run home back to rawang~ so we back home by bus too~ 6:15p.m. me reach home and siew hui too~ heheehhe~ she just same like !-Inn in love with my house because hav beautiful kl view~ ^o^ OMG!!! *pack up clothes* me forgot that need to go back rawang before my mum home~ because i donwan she know that i'm going to rawang and stay there~ if not sure she will come along too~ and i think i need be alone with some reason anywayz~ and me sent Siew Hui home after then..*runa way* me go to rawang by KTM! easier, i think~

finally me at my own appartment~ this appartment is belong to me because my dad gav me as a prasent but i cant remember why he giving this "big" prasent but not "small"..haiz.... however, me stay here from Saturday night until Sunday night...me need to go out on monday so must back at sunday if not i death! wahahaha *evil laugh*

Sunday-9p.m.>>> me reached home liao~ and *pppooofff* sit infornt of my computer and start on9~ neh~~~ alot ppl on9 today~ about 26-28 ppl on9'ing now~ and me busy talk with them~ and..and..xiongie had perkenalkan me 2 guy one is Nub and another wan is Fubuki... weird name but cute name too! wow~ very tired liao~ and tomorrow morning i needto go out with frenz~ geezz.. tired~ however, bye!

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Summit

2004-10-30T23:06:00.000+08:00

today i was really in rush!! 1st i thought finish school wanna go to KotaRaya..but! i can't! because suddenly Interact club got some activity and i need to help them... i like to help ppl anywayz~ so i forgot about going to KotaRaya~ last, it end at 2p.m. something...OMG!!! darn late liao.... geez... i thought wanna go to KotaRaya buy hand watch for xiongie because he don't hav watch~ but seems too late liao so i didn't go and ish raining here... oh ya! guest18!!! forgot liao!!! i suppost call him about cancel going to KotaRaya but at the end we hav buat keputusan going to Summit thatz mean xiongie's work place at Sushi King~

around 3 o'clock guest18 here and pick up me and my frenz(A-Inn)... neh~ A-Inn very naughty and busybody because wanna follow but she knew that her dad will mad... but... neh~ just forget about his dad lar~ maybe later i'll teel my mum to explain to A-Inn' daddy~ on the way we going to Summit, suddenly Xiongie called guest18 but he was not talk to guest18 but me~ what? hurry up? what happen? tell me? but..but..he didn't tell me and just phone off just like that~ and..and.. really make me very very worry because he sound so so ...donno how to explain anywayz~ so i told guest18 to Hurry Up!! xiongie in hurry now!!!

around 5p.m. finally we reach there~ and xiongie was standing at the main door~ geezz! Jitnuse there!!! weeyy~~>,<>
and kitsune!!! u good man! u draw darn alot cute pic!!! i love it! feel like wanna kidnap them all! wahahah~ *evil laugh* and ok, is about time that i should buka puasa... 1st i thought wanna hav my dinner at Sushi King but seems like xiongie had "halau" me, so i go lor~ *sob*

me and A-Inn go at foodcourt to hav our dinner~ after we oder our food~ kitsune and guest18 come! and..and..from that time started, i can't eat! because kitsune just look at we having dinner~ feel bad neh~~~ i already told him to buy something to eat, but he said " i'm full because a hav about 20 cups of green tea at sushi king just now"~~ OMG~ ok, fine~ i won't force u anymore~ and guest18 eat Nasi Goreng for his dinner but he still hungry anywayz! wahah~ seems i can't finish up my meal, and guest18 so hungry so he help me finish it all..... but..but... he still hungry man! and..and...same like me, A-Inn unable to finish her dinner and she had gav her meal to guest18~~ geezzz...swt~ and kitsune was making some jokes about guest18 perut~ becasue able to eat so much~ like hav Buaya in his perut~ wahahahaha~~ and kitsune told me that xiongie said :"sorry" about "halau" me... neh! i don't mind either~

now is already 8pm.m is time that kitsune should go~~ so we all go withour saying goodbye to xiongie~ gomen xiongie! hehhee XDXD...guest18 dropped kitsune at KTM station~ and i kinda worry of him~ i know kitsune already ish a big bot, but still worry~~ bye kitsune! and thankz alot for today jokes! after that we continue our way going home~ and OMG!! we didn't lost today! hahah~ i think i'm too clever~ *perasan* hhehehe :3

9p.m. something~ i and A-Inn home! at my house! A-Inn say wanna stay longer at my house because my house hav beautiful night view kl~ so around 11p.m A-Inn daddy come pick her up home and finally i can ZzZz...

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Mood Down?!

2004-10-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

school days( week)~ XDXDXD and i donno why my mood so "down" or maybe i was thinking somethingz hard that make my mood like this~ swt... kinda bluring me now~ i know what i'm thinking now but itzit really so mean? just lil small case that make me so down?? how come!! no! no! stop thinking about that! and..and...the problem is easy and simple to make a END for that, but just that why i can't do it? and why i'm so in "that"?

love or frenz more important? of couse frenz! and i didn't think for to hav one now~ if i really wanna hav one, thatz must be the person that i like not the person like me~ i mean i must like the person more than the person like me~ *blur*?? yup! kinda~~ :3

neh~~ i donno why i keep thinking of him...i in love with him??!! no! thatz not true anywayz~ and i know that he already hav the person that he likes~ just that no ME! neh~~ and the person that he like ish my frenz~ however...i'm here wish X**** E* and S* Y** and end up with happiness~ God Bless u guys!

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just u and me!

2004-10-26T01:37:00.000+08:00

geezzz.....finally i able to hav my own blog thatz mean nobody thatz i know reading this~ why i do that? because i don't like ppl keep asking me "why? what? when?" really make me blur and headache! haiz... however, now i'm free! just u and me...u who? u= computer! neh~~ i know maybe u will say that i'm stupid and crazy..yup! i'm stupid and crazy anywayz~ so what the B.D about that! wahahaha~ *evil laugh*

btw, i went for masa's birthday outing and it was so darn fun! i have meet alot new fren thatz i heven meet be4 just only chat~ kidchan, teh-o, sparda, temi, natsumi, angel and more~ feel great~ but..but..haiz...feel sad too... because ayase-chan, ky-kiske, kaze-chan and yunagirl can't go for this outing~ *sob* kinda miss u guys~